David A's Experiences
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Experience description:
I have had numerous paranormal experiences in my life. I'm not the
kind of person who does yoga and talks about our 'connectedness'; I don't talk
about U.F.O.s or other things that many would consider 'on the fringe' or
'flakey'. Nevertheless, as a result of my life-long inexplicable experiences, I
am convinced that there is more to life than the so-called experts can explain.
In highschool, I once
saw the same ghost twice--AFTER I'd been experiencing for months the sensation
that something had moved out of the corner of my eye. I never spoke to anyone
about it. Years later, I discovered by accident that my two sisters had seen
the identical ghost and also didn't mention it to each other.
I had a prophetic
dream that made no sense to me at the time. In the dream, I turned the corner
of a building and saw a gigantic, blue-colored block of something I couldn't
identify. The following week, a family friend took my brother and I
cross-country skiing. On the way to our hotel room, I turned the corner of the
balcony that lead to our room and stopped dead in my tracks, my mouth agape. My
brother said my face had turned white. It was a gigantic block of ice that had
been pushed up vertically onto the shore of Lake Superior. It was identical to
what I'd seen in the dream. It was my first experience with the unexplainable.
I've had
ultra-realistic, prophetic dreams since then. The second dream (after the ice
block) concerned what apparently was my wife and two boys. This dream occurred
in 1982. I was single. In the dream, I committed suicide by jumping off a
cliff. Still in the dream, I felt my body hit the rocks below, then instantly
float skyward. I looked down at my body and wondered why I had done such a
stupid thing. Shortly after, the police escorted my wife to the area to
identify my body. As I floated next to her, I could feel the heat of the patrol
car, I could feel the wind in my face, I could smell the hot engine. I was
crying and screaming in her ear "I'm sorry! I'm sorry!", but she didn't hear
me. I didn't know she had loved me. I heard her curse me and ask "Now what am
I going to do? How am I supposed to support two boys?"
I looked to the left
and saw two large, handsome young men and understood that they were my
children. I clearly saw my wife's face. It was the worst dream I had had up to
that point. Four years later, I was in the service overseas and walked into the
office my first day, to introduce myself. A woman had her back to me. When she
turned around, I almost fainted! It was the EXACT woman I saw as my wife in the
dream, four years earlier! I met her in 1986. We married and had two boys...
Also in 1982, I had a
hyper-realistic dream in which I had died an old man. I was very wealthy. My
wife (the same woman in the 'suicide dream') had divorced me. My younger, newer
wife was at the funeral, as were the same two young men, my sons. I could read
people's minds as they milled about the room where they viewed my body. I was
VERY upset at some of their thoughts. Some had only pretended to be my friends;
others were deeply saddened at my loss; and one man was thinking how he'd seduce
and marry my widow!
As I floated around
the room, trying to talk to my friends, I heard a chuckle and looked around to
see who'd laughed at me. I couldn't see anyone, but was overjoyed that at least
SOMEONE could see and hear me! A disembodied voice told me to come with him, my
friends couldn't see or hear me. About that time, my ex-wife --drunk-- burst
into the funeral home and made a scene about how 'hateful' I'd been because I
only left her $500,000! My sons respectfully escorted her out.
The next I knew, I
was on a hilltop overlooking the funeral home. All these other people were
laughing, talking with each other, running up and down the hill and generally
having a great time. I watched astounded as they formed a circle and began to
fly! They zoomed and floated, laughed and screamed with delight. I stood
alone, morose and bewildered. The other people then floated to the ground and
reformed in a circle.
Now that I'm talking
about it, I recall what happened next. A beautiful old woman asked me a
question, very sweetly. I said something like "Don't you get it! We're all
DEAD!" I instantly regretted being so brusque with her. I was embarrassed. I
resented them being able to fly and I couldn't. I resented their having fun. I
told them "humans can't fly". Still feeling bad, I looked at them and said
meekly, "That's what I meant. Humans can't fly. We must be dead". Most of the
group gave me icy stares; a few simply smiled at me. They broke up into smaller
groups or sat down in the sun by themselves.
Then a voice came
down to me, called me by name. It told me I could fly, too. I asked "Who are
you?!" and got a chuckle in reply. I DEMANDED that the voice tell me that
"Jesus is the Son of God and God is the Ruler of the Universe and Father of
Love". The voice didn't comply with my orders, but said gently, quietly, "You
know who I am".
In that instant, I
almost cried for joy. I felt surrounded --infused-- with love, support and
protection. I'd been afraid it was the devil toying me with and the others.
But the instant it said "You know who I am", I knew it wasn't. I was never a
devout Christian. Ever. And yet it was the only framework I could relate to.
With three words, I knew there was a God, and God is Love.
I asked if I could
see Him. There was only silence. I was afraid He'd left. I asked again,
pleading. And the voice said "Would that help?" in a way that made me feel
foolish and cared for, all at once. I said it would. In an instant, an old man
appeared near my right elbow. I dropped to my knee and did my feeble best to
worship him. Apparently, he was an angel or something, since he told me (with a
little hint of anger) to get up! He was not the one to be worshipped. God
was. Before I could ask more questions, he instructed me to run downhill and
flap my arms and I would fly. After one or two bad attempts, it worked!
After it worked, I
found myself gliding over the trees far below, looking down at the funeral home
again. The other folks on the hill had disappeared. My companion and I glided
to a stop near the home. We walked through the wall --much to my protest and
amazement-- and stood in a corner as the service started. I knew without being
told that I had to come back. I didn't want to. I begged and pleaded not to
come back; I didn't want to be 'crammed' back into that old body. My companion
just looked at me, as if to say "I'm sorry, there's nothing I can do". I
started to cry. Then woke up.
Tears were streaming
down my face when I woke up. I was back. I was grateful and sad all at once.
I felt embarrassed for how I'd treated those people on the hill. I felt alone
again. Alone and human.
Then there was the
time I had a Life Review. This'll be short. I was in the military, at the
embassy in Jordan. There was a bomb threat. Some sort of device in a cardboard
box at a nearby building owned by the embassy. We security guards were
dispatched to secure the area. I was told to stay near the box and not let
anyone go near it.
For those of you who
don't know, radio signals can set off explosives if the right switch is used in
making the bomb. I had a radio. A fellow guard kept asking me for a report
over the radio. I was certain if he didn't stop transmitting or if I
transmitted, I'd set off the bomb and be killed.
I happened to be
standing in the street and noticed at one point that I felt lightheaded and then
some sort of screen appeared. I could see the street behind the screen. Then
moments of my life began to play on the screen. I felt every emotion I'd ever
had, all over again. I felt every hurt I'd ever inflicted and felt deeply
ashamed. I heard the laughs and smiled. I felt the sorrow of having to say
goodbyes to all my friends who'd moved out of town. I felt everything all over
again...and found my life wasn't as bad as I'd thought it was --nor as kind or
honest as I'd thought I'd been. I've never told anyone until now about this
event.
There are a few other
episodes of unexplained things I've seen or been through, but I'll cut this
short as I've written too much already. Except this: I once had an OBE, in
1978. It too was short. I'd been suffering for a week from an abscess in my
tooth. I even stayed home from school for a day. My mother wouldn't take me to
the dentist; at first she thought I was faking, but when I developed a high
fever, she said we didn't have the money to see the dentist.
One night, I lay
groaning and tossing in my bed. My brother told me to shut up, I was keeping
him awake. I cried very hard, but quietly. It felt like nobody in my family
either believed me or cared about me. Around two in the morning, I woke up
again from the pain. I couldn't take it any more and just begged to die, over
and over. I started to lose my hearing or something, because my voice seemed
fainter by the second. I suddenly heard a "POP!" and the pain instantly
stopped.
At first, I thought
the abscess had burst, then discovered to my horror and curiosity that I was
standing in the corner of my bedroom, looking at my body! There was a greenish
light that covered my body, then the light faded. I started to cry again (I was
fifteen), horrified that I was dead or something. There was a rushing sound and
I found myself back in my body. The pain was still there, but much less than it
had been.
I thought I'd just
been dreaming --maybe-- until I was listening to a radio show about OBEs, nearly
twenty years after the event. The guest speaker mentioned that many people hear
a loud popping sound when they leave their bodies. I was literally jolted
upright in my seat when I heard that. It was the first time I'd ever heard
anyone mention it. That's how I knew the speaker was 'for real'.
There's so much more
to say, but again, I've gone on too long.
2. No, during my actual
out-of-body experience.
Interested dis-belief
(or half-hearted belief).
No.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes The number and variety of them.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes In the OBE experience, I had been suffering from
an extremely painful abscessed tooth; my Life Review was triggered by a bomb.
At what time
during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness? The entire time.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest
level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from
your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:
The entire time.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any
aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception
degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes In some instances, yes. I could see things in incredible
detail at impossible distances. At other times, I could 'hear colors' or 'feel
sounds'.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
Yes Again, I could --on occasion-- 'hear colors'.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions
did you feel during the experience?
In the single OBE I've had, I felt terrified, confused then sad as it
happened.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did you see a light?
No Not in the classic sense of seeing a tunnel. I saw a glow covering my
body.
Did you meet or see any other beings?
Yes 1. Yes. Unknown others of various ages, races and sexes; also saw an
angel or mystical being.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes I learned that my stepfather did the best he could,
considering how he'd been raised. I hated him when I was a kid, before my
mother divorced him. I learned that I wasn't as cowardly or alone as I thought
I was, but not as nice or honest either.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your
experience that could be verified later?
No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
Yes In one prophetic dream (described above), I was in a beautiful valley
with gently rolling hills and warm, green grass blown by a cool, 'just-right'
breeze.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes During a life review, time stood still
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose? Yes Again, in my prophetic dreams, there was a clear
message that life is precious; we are to enjoy it, nourish it, not take it for
granted and do the best we can. There is a higher order or purpose.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain In the dream of my death at an old age, I felt as if
I 'didn't belong' or wasn't fully accepted by the group on the hill who were
waiting to move on.
Did you become aware of future events?
Yes
I literally met the woman of my dreams and we DID have two boys, as
I foresaw.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the
experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain I've always been good at feeling whether someone
is a nice person or not the moment I meet them. This ability seems to be
enhanced slightly.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes At a minimum, ten years.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your
experience?
Yes I'd read about 'Walk Ins' before the abscess. About a year before.
That's why I was unsure if this were something my mind had made up after reading
it, or if it were real.
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real It had a real effect on my behavior.
Regardless of whether these things happened in my mind or another plane of
existence, their effects were made manifest in this world. Also, I saw no
difference in how my senses perceived these things, unlike dreams where we
sometimes KNOW we're dreaming.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
In
one dream, I learned that suicide was never a proper answer. In another, that
we can never truly know another person. In another, that there are things in
this world that can't be explained. In my review, that our lives are never as
good or as bad as we think they are. In my OBE, that consciousness exists
outside our bodies.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was probably real The longer I live, the more I find that
science does not have all the answers; neither does any one religion. All we
have is our bodies to experience this world; any sensations are of necessity and
in their nature, real.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Uncertain
I
still experience fear of many things, except death. I still feel hate, jealousy,
pain, uncertainly. You'd think I'd be more patient, understanding, loving,
secure...I've changed, but not too awfully much.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Uncertain
I've
never been dogmatic or particularly observant; yet I have an unshakeable faith
in a Supreme Being and the soundness of certain principles within select
religions. Islam however, has become repugnant to me.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
As
for the NDE? It opened my eyes to a world I'd only read about and half-believed.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes