Danielle S's Experience
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Experience description:

I was talking with my mother and we were saying that if people could remember more of their earlier days, it could be vital to helping guide us.  I said to her, "that would be great! lets put in a request to the other side," just joking around. Well, a couple of nights later, either drifting off or waking, don't recall, I started to go to have the most detailed memories I have ever had, NO EXCEPTIONS! It wasn't just that, it was a miracle, like a mini-NDE if you will. The next night, it happened again, different time of life. It didn't even fully hit me for a day or two, and when it did, I frantically grabbed my voice recorder and the words that came out of my mouth did not even seem like my own, the wisdom, the awesome peace and clarity. Mom transcribed it for me. She said my eyes were huge and she has never seen me look so excited. I hope anyone reading can understand it because it was transcribed exactly as I said it, umms and all. Here it is- 

I was back in the situation, with NO judgment, no fear. I could remember everything: how I felt (I was pregnant at 19 and scared to death at the time and near homeless,) the clothes I was wearing and symbols, symbols that meant so much. And I was shown that when times were the hardest, the hardest times I had, that was when my spirit was the strongest but I didn't know it.

I was pregnant with Brett (my son,15 now,) scared to death, walking around in a numb state. In this mini-life review I was shown that that's when my spirit was strongest. And it was a miracle, the feeling the strength. And another time when I was around the same age, earlier, seventeen, I bought a jacket and the jacket was pure me, my style, and it's like I was being shown that even in the hardest times I was me, I was strong, though I felt weak and scared.  

And the detail of the memory and the detachment from all fear, it was just absolutely amazing. It is as if, if we could translate that to all the hard times we're having now, we'd realize we're looking at all the wrong things. It's the small things. The things that we think are so trivial, a necklace, a hobby, those are the things that...symbols are more than I thought they were, they tie us to these moments. And when we feel weak and not strong, it is amazing how strong our spirit is. 

Even if we know nothing of the other side or spirituality at all, when I was reminded of these times, at the time, I was not spiritual at all. I didn't know anything. I didn't study it or think about it, nothing. It was showing me that I have always been me. I was me before marriage and the kids, I was strong, my spirit was amazingly strong as a TEENAGER. Um, so it would really be great if we could pull that into the hard times we have now and realize that life IS a miracle you know. 

It is all the things we just don't look at and a life review, if a full life review is anything like the glimpses I've gotten, then there is absolutely nothing to be afraid of. In fact, it is absolutely amazing, absolutely amazing, and those times don't die. They are somewhere, forever. Cool. And it is as if the symbols help tie it all in. They are more, um, there's more attached to a simple object than we think there is. You know, um, so the little things DO matter. And it is much more simple than we think it has to be. 

Note-in these mini-life reviews its like I was in a hologram, standing beside my self but looking down about 3 feet, total peace and clarity.   

We go through a lot of guilt all the time, so much guilt. And what these glimpses show me is that that's just where we were at the time, just part of the human experience and we WON'T BE "HUMAN" (spiritual beings) when we're watching these reviews. So, we don't have to feel guilty all the time. 

And it is my feeling from what I've learned from this, that if something makes us happy, that's important, even if it seems trivial. It's the true joys that are going to stand out, not the artificial highs, like shopping. If we're shopping and we're having pure joy, it's okay. But if we're shopping to fill, then in the review you're going to see the sadness of trying to fill that whole. So we need to be more joyful, feel less guilty and we need to feel joy even if something is trivial, because no matter what it is, it is just another part of the human experience. 

(Almost done!)  All is equal. Things are what they are.        If we did in fact choose our life plan before birth, why, when we knew it was going to be hard as hell, then why would we do that knowing we had to review? Well, the review is not for punishment and to make us feel worse. We see it all objectively and not coldly detached, but lovingly detached. And like I said, we won't be human when we view it, we will be wise spirit beings once we reach that light. I believe we knew that it is supposed to be crazy in a way, this earth life. I've heard some say they have a good sense of humor on the other side, so, who knows, it would make sense to me!!!!!!

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     No earthly words to fully describe it.

 At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Hard to say. It's as if I slipped into some other place.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   At first I thought it was a dream/vivid memory. Not for long did I think that.

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No      

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Peace and empowerment, no fear, and I'm a VERY anxious person.

 Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           NO

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?            Yes     It is like I was back in time, IN my old self but without the terror.

 Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Yes            Heightened senses. Could smell and see my environment, but not the same as we do everyday.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     I felt that past time is just as "now" as now is.

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes     I now know what the Buddhists must mean by 'just be.' It's really that simple, that's ALL we have to do. It's JUST as important as saving the world or being a "mover and shaker." It is all creation doing its thing.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?   Yes     More synchronicities are happening at a faster rate.

 Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I need to lighten up on myself.

 How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       The experience is fading, but I try to remember the wisdom in all the daily stress. I became my own guru! How cool is that?! We can all do that!!!

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     I feel better about myself. I AM a strong spirit, not a basket case after all.

 Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     My mother is the one who pointed out the NDE connection and insisted I share it.

 What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Elation

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Having it end was the worst.

 Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        All I did was ask, wonder really, and it came in the form it did.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes    

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    No that's good.