CS's Experience
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Experience description:
The
first incident My
boyfriend and I were making love. Suddenly all sounds, lights and things around
us disappeared. What happened then was that I saw a light then two small bright
lights against a very black background. As I watched, the two lights joined
together but were still separate but we were connected. I didn't know what they
were but knew in my mind that in some way these lights were the two of us in
some other form. I became
frightened and became aware of my surroundings again. My boyfriend had seen the
same thing and wanted to talk about it but I was too frightened and got dressed
and ran home. I don't know why I was frightened.
Eventually, I wondered if the connection I had seen between us meant that we
were soulmates. We continued our relationship for about four years. After we
moved to different cities, we drifted apart. The
second incident I had
joined a yoga class and this was probably the third or fourth session. The
class was held at about 7PM. The instructor had us do the usual stretching
exercises and then we sat in a particular position that I don't remember and he
said that we should start dancing inside our heads. After a minute, he said
that in our heads, we should dance right up through the top of our heads. At
that point, I felt that I was a small, bright light dancing in the air over my
head. I felt freer than I had ever felt and continued to dance outside of my
head. I was ecstatic. Finally he called us back to our bodies. I continued to
feel light and very happy and free for about an hour after the experience. It
never happened again. Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience? No During the
second event, I was joyous, elated, happy, free, released from all cares. In the
second event, it was just me. In the
second event, there was no other being. In the
second event, I could see myself as a ball of light and feel myself moving in
space. I was alone in a black void without sound. In the
second event, I was brought back by the voice of the Yoga instructor, I didn't
really want to come back. After the
second event, joy, freedom from cares, elation.
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
In both incidents, I was awake and
conscious; I knew that my body was there.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
Neither experience was dreamlike.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
In both events, I was a
circle/small ball of very bright light.
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
In the first event, I was just
observing, my emotions weren't involved or evident. Eventually, I was
frightened because I couldn't understand what was happening.
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
There were no sound during either
event.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light?
Yes
The lights in the first event
were me and him.
Did you meet or see any other
beings? Yes
In the first event, the other
ball of light was my lover. No communication, we didn't need any - we just
joined together.
Did you experiment while out
of the body or in another, altered state?
NoDid
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did you notice how your 5
senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes
In the first event, there was
nothing except sight. We were in space or a black void.
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time?
Yes
In both events, there was no
sense of time at all.
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware of future
events? No
Were you involved in or aware
of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes
In the first event, I was
frightened and somehow ended the experience.
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
No
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
Just that I now firmly believe
in the existence of the soul and an afterlife.
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices? It hasn't.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
Just amazement. Some indicated
that they had had out of body experiences as well.
What emotions did you
experience following your experience?
After the first event, fear and
disbelief.
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
First event - the fear of the
unknown.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
I
know that both experiences were for very short periods. Both events occured at
very different times and under completely different circumstances and your
questions got at that. In addition, your questions were sufficient to capture
the few details that were present.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
During
the first event, my partner was having the same experience - seeing himself as a
white ball of light, recognizing me as the other ball of light and joining with
me but he was not frightened - perhaps a question regarding what a person who
was with you saw and felt.