Christine H's Experience
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Experience description:
It
happened August 29th on Friday afternoon 1997. I stood with a shovel on the
slope along the east side of my home where I had begun digging up grass to start
a new garden. I stopped for awhile and leaned against my shovel while thinking
of the wonderful conversation I had with a doctor that morning. Then something
got my full attention (it happened to me before) and it was a buzzing or ringing
sound right before all sound disappeared. I was quite aware of the complete
silence -as if nothing else existed. Time too had changed, it became slowed down
or stopped. I felt soothed and completely focused by the silence. I strongly
felt that it was an invitation to come on a journey. Feeling more curious than
alarmed about what would come next, I let myself fall forward.
My
world disappeared (or maybe I did) and I began falling through a blackness that
quickly turned into super fast moving streaks of brilliant, colored light. The
�ride� was smooth despite the speed
that I was falling at. I felt invigorated and was without fear. To me it was an
adventure and I looked forward to what would happen next.
What happened next is a little hard to describe. I was through the tunnel and
suddenly landed and watching the creation and birth of everything (earth to
plants and animals) one, right after the other. It was shown in such an extreme
fast forward that my eyes became �fast� so that I could view it all. I remember
a seed then suddenly had roots which spread furiously fast through the soil and
then it�s life force pushed through and the petals unfolded to became the most
beautiful red rose - I noticed the color was more vibrant as if it had life as
well. The flower seemed to grow from seed to complete flower in less than a
second. It was like seeing everything being born from conception to birth in the
blink of an eye. I can not say in words what it truly all was like. The colors I
was seeing had evolved from dark hues of blacks, grays and browns to blues,
greens and then reds and yellows. Next I found myself in a room. The room was
filled with sumptuous pillows where I sat down and was treated to a show. I can
only describe it as being inside a gigantic kaleidoscope, where the colorful
images were changing designs rapidly�all breathtaking.
Afterwards feeling very drowsy, I quickly fell asleep on the soft
pillows.
In
the next moment I was waking up in a placid blackness in space. There were tiny
pinholes of starlight giving the impression of floating in outer space. I felt
well rested and very calm after what seemed like a long sleep. I looked over to
see myself in the distance. I watched myself wake up. I (the self I watched) was
curled up in a fatal position. When I became aware that I could move about
freely, I �opened up� and gently floated downward through the night above a new
place while I waited for the sun to rise.
I am now in a flower garden, a large and very crowded mass of colors in
full bloom. The flowers were very tall and looked beautifully old world. This
garden was the perfect greeting to the house it belonged to. It was a happy
garden, it was alive with a child like excitement.
Here, my physical body was now completely gone. I was light and getting smaller
but becoming much more than before. I could fly all about the garden, my vision
was extraordinary and I could zoom in on the tiniest details. I felt very
natural here and the garden�s joy made me feel like I belonged. There was always
the me with the body (although not seen) watching the other me (a small, ball of
light) while experiencing everything the other did. I took notice of the
flowers, of how they were alive and they were immersed in a love that was pure.
To this day I can cry thinking of it. The garden�s colors were also alive with
hues that made every other colors at �home� dull.
The flowers moved as if a gentle wind always was present. It was sunny but the
sun never hurt my eyes. The temperature was perfect and I felt a sense of
wellbeing as I never have. The sun lit up the petals and wings, making them
transparent and I would fly in to enjoy the intricate designs (like I did inside
the kaleidoscope). The garden was entertaining me and I felt not only love and
joy there but also a sense of fun. My ears could make out each bird and insect
but there was a particular sound- a buzzing, that was actually becoming
obnoxious in it�s impatience for my attention. I flew to it and was face to face
with a big fat bumblebee. It went into a flower and then suddenly was blown out
by a tremendous explosion of pollen. I could see each tiny grain floating in
slow motion. The expression on the bumblebee�s face was hilarious- like it had
the best orgasm ever- It looked me straight in the eyes, smiled and flew off as
I laughed out loud. The garden felt like the entire universe and everything it
held I could see in a single dewdrop on a flower�s petal. I thanked God for
letting me come here. I was having such a great time that I would have been
content to stay and explore more but then I felt �him�. I flew above and watched
as the boy entered the garden path.
The boy appeared to be around 14 years of age. He walked along a stone path
which went through the center of the large flower garden and ended at the front
door to the house. He wore a high collar blue-gray jacket that looked like
velvet, with shiny buttons down the front. I could see white ruffles of his
shirt sticking out the jacket sleeves. His pants matched the jacket and were
cuffed around his knees. He wore long pale stockings and dark brown leather
shoes which appeared well worn. The shoes had brass buckles and the sunlight
bounced off of them as he walked. His longish brown curls moved gently and
framed his smiling and radiant face. He carried a bouquet of flowers that he
picked from a garden elsewhere. Despite his age, he had a confidence and
sureness about him. The boy was happy and humming a song that sounded old and
silly. The faster he walked the faster he hummed and it made me smile. He did
not seem to notice me flying about him (or the other me watching it all from
another place). As he entered the
garden The flowers were taller than he and they were very excited by his
presence� they truly loved this boy. I followed him closely and realized I could
feel his joy. As we came closer to the front door I noticed I became an
invisible nothingness that could go through walls and even the boy. I felt
incredibly light and every thought I had was good and beautiful. There wasn�t
the ticking of time passing and it would slow down or go backwards so that I
could take every detail in.
The girl lived in a charming country home, that looked like it belonged in
Europe, perhaps France. The house looked like light colored stone bleached by
the sun. The door was centered with a large window on both sides. The walls were
very thick and windows set deep, the second floor windows were much smaller and
I noticed wooden shutters, aged a beautiful bronze. The front door was a thing
of beauty, with it�s solid craftsmanship and it�s
layers of pale paint, I noticed a delicate webbing and texture that I had
to fly up close to study it..the door reminded me of seashells as well. Adorning
the door was an oval brass door knocker where I saw the boy�s reflection in it
as he went to use it. Time could go backwards so I could watch the boy
approach the garden and feel the wonderful feelings all over again. We
again got to the door, knocked and we waited excitedly for it to open. The boy
went in through the door but I followed through the wall. The inside of the
house was filled with sunlight and colors much like the garden. I noticed
several vases of fresh cut flowers throughout the large room. The furniture was
beautifully crafted and covered in materials of floral designs and cheery
colors. My eyes then looked towards the back, right side of the room at the
bottom of the stairs and I saw the girl. She was small and petite, looked about
thirteen or fourteen. She looked so lovely in her long, pale yellow satin dress
fitted to her tiny waist. A matching colored ribbon was tied around her head
where long ringlets of light brown jumped around her shoulders. Her face really
glowed and seemed transparent like the petals lit up by the sun. I felt with her
the same as the boy, and can only describe it as pure joy. The girl�s mother was
standing close by her and it was she who opened the door. I could not feel this
woman�s feelings, and although she seemed happy or pleased for her daughter, I
noticed she was somewhat worried but hid it from the girl who could barely
contain her excitement. The girl ran down the steps to answer the door. Her
mother didn�t seem to think it was ladylike for the girl to have answered the
door.
We
watched (again) the boy through the front window as he happily walked the garden
path towards the door. I then felt for the first time a dread and my eyes darted
to the room on the left which I only noticed now. It was a darkened room but I
could make out a man sitting in a chair looking out the other front window,
watching the boy come closer. The chair was facing away from me so could only
see part of his head. My vision was blurry towards this room, not at all like
the super clear vision everywhere else. Very reluctantly, I was about to go into
this room but something stopped me. The sudden urgency of time rushed in
quickly, so I put the dark feeling away and I moved back to the girl as the boy
knocked and the door was opened.
The girl took a deep breath (so did I) as she opened the door.
When the boy and girl finally were face to face they didn�t say one word,
instead I felt everything they �said�. I felt every emotion of both of them and
went back in time again, this time with her so I could feel her emotions and
watch through the window as he approached the garden. We both could barely
contain our joy and ran down the stairs as he was about to knock. I watched them
as they looked at each other with young smiles. Suddenly I was inside the boy,
seeing her through his eyes and also looking at him through her eyes. I then saw
both their reflections looking back at me. What I felt next was simultaneously
going through both of them and feeling their love. Then it was time to be rushed
back to where I was before, standing on a slope leaning against my shovel.
When I looked around I was amazed how my vision still seemed clearer and the
grass a much more vibrant green. I could see individual blades of grass which
moved as if alive. Distant and close sounds of insects and birds seemed clearer
and harmonious. I felt incredible and energetic. I felt happy but also sad.
After awhile, the colors went normal but horribly dull compared to that garden.
Everything here is dull and dark in comparison. I did feel the presence of
something much greater than us during my OBE.
I have had psychic type stuff most of my life.
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
At the time of this experience, was there an
associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness
during the experience?
I
was both conscious and alert. I knew I was somewhere else the whole time. It
felt like I was away for the entire day but it was only minutes. I was still
standing in same position and never fell asleep.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
It was different for sure in it all made sense and it felt
like an invitation.
Did you experience a separation of your
consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
There was the me with a body watching me
(from above or somewhere else) without the body and both experiencing the
feelings simultaneously.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
I felt exhilarated from the adventure and I felt love like I
have never felt before. I can not describe except that it was pure and extremely
powerful.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
Only in the beginning when the humming sound got my attention and sound all went
away. During it I only heard sounds in the garden of birds and insects making
beautiful sounds/songs. No speaking out loud, but everything was understood.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did
you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious
teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing
creatures?
Uncertain
I suppose the landscape and house seemed
familiar in only I felt at home.
Did you meet or see any other beings?
Yes A young boy
and girl who were in love. I felt their love. Love was communicated. I felt like
I knew both, as if I were both or one of them.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people
or events during your experience that could be verified later?
No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and
if so, how were they different?
Yes
My senses were very sharp, especially
sight and hearing.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes
Time would speed up, slow down or go back
in time to experience feelings all over again.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special
knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Uncertain
I remember seeing in such fast forward the
creation of planets to animals and plants. It was so fast that it seemed to
happen all in less than a minute - too much for my human brain but while it
happened I seemed to know something I can't recall now.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical
structure?
Yes
The dark room scared me and I didn't get
to find out what/who was there because it seemed like something pulled me away
and time was ending there. I felt like I was being protected from going there.
Did you become aware of future events?
No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the
experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes
I have had the buzzing sound before. Once
when it happened I was in my mother's womb and experienced birth again, and
another time I felt and heard the presence of a 'ghost'.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs
following the experience?
No Response
I beliefs haven't really changed. No religious
affiliation but yet I believe in God.
How has the experience affected your
relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
Be
kinder and tell people you love them. Keep God alive with love.
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
Extreme well being, happiness, love and also some fear
of a person in a darkened room.
What was the best and worst part of your
experience?
Everything about it was incredible, but especially the part
where I went through the 'souls' of 2 people in love. I didn't want it to end
because I felt too good there.
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
No