Cristina C's Experience
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Experience description:
About 6
times in two months, when in bed trying to sleep, felt my body suddenly
paralyzed and a strong frightening noise in my ears. Tried to move and wake my
partner besides me but completely unable. Then a
loud "pop" sound, feeling like flesh ripped of my body and suddenly legs
floating, like pulled up by something and then rest of body out. Each time find
myself exactly room in front of the bed where I lay down (sometimes my own,
sometimes my daughter's, sometimes the sofa). Seeing each time the furniture and
objects around like lit from inside (by themselves) I felt everything had its
own light and sound as well. Tried to move, just thinking about going down the
corridor and then being "sucked" to the place at an amazing speed. Feelings
of lightness, I could think incredibly clearly, everything seemed much more real
than reality. Sort of concepts or information about life and its purpose coming
to my mind. Everything
around recognizable but with funny distortions. Sometimes some object or shape I
wouldn't recognize. I could
not see clearly my body lying down but could feel the shape somewhere there. I
could perceive though the body of my partner bed. Then
suddenly back and sit up in my bed sweating, not understanding what happened,
quite frightened to go back to sleep for some days. It's
happened about six seven times since then and not so frightening anymore though
I can't control the process voluntarily. Also find
that depending on my previous emotional state or types of thought the experience
can be pleasing or terrifying. Most
striking the quality and clarity of consciousness and the vividness of feeling.
When it happens it seems as "this reality" is a dream. And you don't find
important the things that you usually care about during the day. Well the
first time I saw my youngest daughter (at the time 3) by the window and remember
thinking to myself: she must be out dreaming (I wouldn't have thought such thing
a couple of hours earlier!!). When I got back first thing I did was run to her
bed where I found her deeply asleep. Hearing:
very vivid. Touch: not
really, but felt sensations like in my inside. Change in
values. More time for living and less for earning. Did you
reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes,
The walls of my flat. Did not
seem able to go out. When the
experience was pleasant, trying to control it pulled me back. Interested
about spirituality, evolution and levels of consciousness, purpose in life, and
learning about life and death, true meaning of all, mechanics of life (not in a
physical sense, but metaphysical)
The worst: not
being able to control the experiences, where to go, what to do, how I felt.
Any associated medications
or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes
I cannot describe the vividness
of consciousness or feeling or sensation. The way things look lit up "from
inside" or the different sense of identity unlike the day to day way of
functioning. It felt, this is real, the rest is a hallucination !
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Amazingly increased and vivid.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
Not at all. In one occasion after
it started it seemed to turn into a normal dream. Felt like if I lost
consciousness.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
I could not see anything like a
body, but rather a felt like a floating point the size of a pea or a fleece
(tiny), but retaining the feeling of my body without seeing it.
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
Sometimes lightness, fullness,
happiness, joy. Once or twice fear and terror. I thing it depended on my state
of mind or emotions after the events of each particular day.
Did you hear any unusual
sounds or noises?
Yes, roaring, a voice calling,
buzzing, dripping
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light?
Uncertain
Not exactly, I saw my usual
surroundings lit mysteriously at night (with all lights off), like if they had
their own light, not like the sun light, not like artificial light, but like
their "own" inherent light. I cannot explain better.
Did you meet or see any other
beings? Uncertain,
Sometimes a shape or sort of
body, just around, do not know who or why.
Did you experiment while out
of the body or in another, altered state?
Yes
I tried the second time, I
thought: I want to visit such person, but I wasn't able. I was like swept back
to where I went to bed! I haven't tried since.
Did you observe or hear
anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
Yes
I saw a computer screen in my
studio on (distorted though, I did not recognize what it was at first, it seems
like you see through a fish bowl). Then when back I checked and it was on. I had
forgotten to turn the power off.
Did you notice how your 5
senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Uncertain
Sight: much light but things
familiar funnily distorted, like in Alice in Wonderland.
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time?
Yes, It seemed a
long time but must have been a couple of minutes.
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
That life is sacred. It is the
greatest opportunity to acquire knowledge (not in the text book sense, but
wisdom and realizing our purpose). We are here to learn, to love, to learn to
love and to teach what we learn. It seemed like "many people"? where waiting for
this chance but not everybody has the opportunity when they want. Therefore when
we get the chance is precious.
Did you become aware of future
events? No
Were you involved in or aware
of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes
Yes when I was frightened I
thought, please I want to go back and so it happened.
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
Uncertain
Well some kind of telepathy
with certain people or intuitions about things.
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
As described before.
How has the experience
affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices? Some people
say I'm dreaming, only one person believes me, so I don't talk about it much at
all because my nearest relations seem frightened about it and tend to think it's
stress or some malfunctioning of the brain.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
In a general vision of things
yes, but not in the day to day life.
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
One understanding and supported
in his own beliefs. The rest suspicious, or just don't want to talk about the
subject, or treat me like a bit "funny".
What emotions did you
experience following your experience?
Excitement, need to share the
experience and every concept that came to my mind through them.
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
The best: experiencing we are not
just our body. What's more, the body seems like a pair of glasses that block
somewhat real perception.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
That I
am very glad to see there are many cases, since I had not read about it and I
have never taken any drugs or substances, so the cause must be natural. Probably
has to do with a certain level of consciousness I Think. I had been told it
could be sleep apnea or eating cheese in the evening.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
I cannot
think of any now. I thing the questionnaire is quite complete.