Conrad S Experience
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Experience description:
I
was on a 35 hour bus trip in Brazil, this was 1991. I was sitting in my seat in
the middle of the day, I was tired of reading so I just closed my eyes and
relaxed. In the next moment, I realized that I wasn't alone, there were 7 white
robed beings within my mind. I have studied about other people who had made
contact with spiritual beings so I knew what was happening but nothing like this
had ever happened to me. It was a very powerful feeling, there was a sacredness
and a feeling that this was a very important moment. Even though I knew what was
happening it was very unnerving and I felt frightened. I thought to myself that
I don't deserve this, probably because I felt like I never deserved anything and
also because I knew inside that they wanted something from me, otherwise they
wouldn't have appeared in my mind. When I thought the words, 'I don't deserve
this' I received an immediate telepathic answer, 'If you didn't deserve it, we
wouldn't be here'. This made sense and I relaxed. The next thing I remember was
going through some type of initiation ceremony but there is no memory of exactly
what happened. Then they left my mind and I was by myself again. I could have
reasoned that this experience never happened except for one thing, when they
left my consciousness they also left some information. I had a conscious memory
of the values; Beauty, Order, Honesty, Truth, Laughter, Positive Thoughts and
Path of the Golden Heart. I thought to myself, 'why laughter?' and with that
thought I received an intuitive answer, 'when we're laughing we are in the
moment, it is the ego-killer and it's hard to think ill of someone else when
laughing.' I thought this sounded to be reasonable.
This was my only vision or direct contact with these 7 spiritual masters but
over the next 25 years I have been receiving knowledge through dreams and
intuitive contemplation that has produced a book on spiritual philosophy called,
'Path of the Golden Heart'. When I was reading the accounts of people who had
had an NDE I began to realize that they were expressing the same kind of values
that this book is explaining. From their experience they have a knowingness in
the love that is present in the next life as well as a knowledge that we need to
make this love a reality on Earth and in our community. These spiritual masters
have made me a channel in which to reveal the spiritual laws that are working in
our lives. Spiritual laws are like the laws of gravity, because it doesn't make
any difference if you believe in gravity because it will affect all of us
equally.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes
There were 7 white robed spiritual beings in this vision and there seemed to be
some kind of initiation ceremony of which I really can't remember. I do remember
that while these beings were in my consciousness there was a sacredness about
this experience.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
very alert
and very conscious, almost super conscious
Was the experience dream like in any way?
It was not. I had a dream with these spiritual beings a few
years later but in the dream I woke up the next morning and began remembering
the dream. With the visionary experience I was totally conscious the entire
time.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
A mixture
of fear, uncertainty, awe and confusion
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
I
was in their presence and aware of the thoughts that they wanted me to hear,
their telepathic communication.
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a light?
Yes
These 7 spiritual
beings were dressed in long white robes and although there was a sacredness in
this moment, there was no light that called to my attention.
Did you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your
experience that could be verified later?
No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes
In one
sense it seemed that there were a lot of things that transpired in this vision
but when I try to remember how long it lasted I really have no sense of time. In
reality it may have lasted for a few seconds or a minute, but it wasn't the
amount of time, it was what happened during that time.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes
When it happened in 1991 it actually left me confused but as the years have gone
by I have been able to keep piecing together the essence of this philosophy, I
began calling it my cosmic jigsaw puzzle, because every piece had to fit
together. This feeling continues to grow, to the point that I feel it is my
responsibility to share this knowledge with anyone who is interested.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware of future events?
Yes
I began to have an inner awareness of how I needed to prepare
my life for the future. I have a chiropractic clinic in Salvador, Brazil and
many years ago, I realized the necessity of preparing someone to take over my
clinic in the future. Since there are very few chiropractors in Brazil this left
open few options. But as the years moved along a person appeared and I'm now
semi-retired and in the process of sharing this philosophy, Path of the Golden
Heart.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the
experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes
I have taken several courses and workshops
that have opened up my intuitive abilities but I would not attribute this
directly to my visionary experience, but rather an inner search for more meaning
in life.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
I
had been a member of a religious group called Eckankar for 15 years and shortly
after this vision I left this group to study by myself.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious
practices? Career choices?
Not directly, but over the course of 24 years I have changed a
lot. I was very much a quiet and inner directed person. I read a lot and felt
uneasy in groups. I am now becoming much more social and although I still have a
fear of speaking to groups, this fear has dropped dramatically.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I
had a nice comfortable life as a chiropractor in Brazil and now I'm living in
the United States and trying to prepare myself as a lecturer and book writer.
I'm definitely out of my comfort zone.
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes
Some
people have shown interest and a belief in what happened to me in this vision
but very few people are able to comprehend the message that I am getting from
this philosophy. It is frustrating because it seems so clear and logical to me
but for some reason other people are reluctant to believe.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
There was
the fear of having these 7 spiritual beings within my consciousness, but in
contrast was the feeling of sacredness and awe.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I know that I am being used as a vehicle to present this
knowledge, at the same time I have free will and it's me that has to decide on
how to proceed in divulging this information. I'm still not comfortable in the
role I'm playing as a kind of messenger for these spiritual beings and I realize
that it's usually my ego that is keeping me from understanding the deeper
aspects of love and developing spiritually.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes
I have
written about this experience many times but your questionnaire helped me to
identify some aspects that I had never before considered.