Carolyn C's Experience
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Experience description:
It
was 1997. I had separated from my husband about 2 years before and had rented
half of an older, tall 'front porch' style home, probably built around 1910. My
new landlady became a friend. My half of the house included the back half of the
main, first floor (our kitchen, a small 'den/TV room', and a bathroom) and the
whole basement, which I had transformed into a formal living room (where I slept
on the sofa) and a separate sleeping area for my two sons. My sons, ages 9 and
13 at that time, went back & forth between their dad's home and mine and were
not with me at the time this occurred (Thank Goodness).
I
was meditating a lot at this time - perhaps 2 hours a day 'on a good day'. I
attended the Unity Church and read Deepak Chopra's 'Seven Spiritual Laws of
Success' until it fell to pieces. I still have that beloved copy of the book,
with much pink highlighting. I had begun to have some startling synchronicities
and so on in my life. My idea was that my goal, in meditating, was 'a closer
connection with God'. I felt I didn't want any of the 'bells and whistles', as I
called them then - like clairvoyance, OBEs (about which I barely knew anything)
and such.
Sooo... I was preparing to go to sleep in my basement living room/bedroom. I'm
sure I had been reading because I have read before sleeping nearly every night
of my life since I was abut 8 years old. Now, I was just lying on the sofa with
the light still on, staring up toward the ceiling, perhaps thinking about
something, or just daydreaming - I don't recall. (I was not asleep, I assure
you.) Suddenly - this I very clearly recall!! - there appeared before my eyes,
about 5 or 6 feet away, above the other end of the sofa near the low ceiling, a
sort of 'screen'. It was really as if a small TV screen had suddenly appeared
there, just hanging in the air! I stared at it intensely. I saw two tall walls,
slanted out toward me (like this: /
x \
) and in between the walls I saw a human-like figure - the 'x' in my
little drawing - apparently sitting on the ground. I saw no clothes, no facial
features, and no arms. I could see something like legs stretched out to the
left, as he/it was sitting facing, sort of catty-cornered, the left. It was
striking that this armless figure was scarlet red from head to toe. As I watched
this picture with great intensity, the figure suddenly raised its head,
appearing to be in distress. I saw a mouth open as it/he/she appeared to cry out
for help.
Now, strangely, I wasn't frightened! (I have since come to believe that when
this kind of thing happens to us we're in a sort of trance. I have learned a lot
about the hypnagogic state. I think this is why we don't jump up and run around
in a panic, or grab the phone and call 911 for help, thinking we have lost our
minds.) This scene 'hung in the air' for about 8-10 seconds. That doesn't sound
too long, but if you count it out it's a loonnnggg time to be seeing this! As I
say, there was no fear, just intense curiosity. I was thinking, 'What the hell
IS that??' The picture then just faded away. Honestly, I matter-of-factly
shrugged my shoulders, rose and set my alarm clock, which was halfway across the
room on a bookshelf, and turned out my light. It was something like 10:07PM.
I
lay back down and fell right asleep.
Suddenly I was awakened by several sets of very loud footsteps running in the
driveway just outside. It was loud enough to wake me, and instantly frightening.
Then I heard male voices shouting, 'Put your hands in the air!! Put your hands
in the air!!' There would be a couple of seconds of silence, then another voice
(sounding very drugged) shouting, whining and pleading, 'Don't spray me, man!!',
followed by more shouting, 'PUT YOUR HANDS IN THE AIR!!' I believe the person
was incapable of obeying because he was sprayed with pepper spray or something
repeatedly, and this went on while I lay on the sofa absolutely paralyzed by
fear. I could hear very distinctly because there was a basement window, not
where I was on the sofa, but behind my head in the area where my sons would have
been sleeping, had they been there. All this was literally happening 3-4 feet
from that window.
Eventually, the cops subdued the man, cuffed him, and I heard them lead him down
the driveway toward the street. After a minute I 'unfroze' enough to get up. I
looked at the clock and it was about 10:30PM. (For years I recalled the exact
times but no longer do.) I cautiously made my way up into my kitchen. Because I
was friends with my landlady, the door separating her half (the front)of the 1st
floor of the house from my half wasn't locked, and I was able to enter the front
hallway and go to the front door. It was an old-fashioned wooden door that was
mostly glass, covered by a curtain. I pulled the curtain aside and saw:
Out on the narrow, 2-lane road (this a city/suburban area, but it's a narrow
road,) at least two police cars with lights blazing, and a paddy wagon. The
police cars were facing each other, angled, like this:/___/
x \____\
One policeman had the culprit up against the front of the police car on
the right, and he (the cop)seemed very angry. I thought he was going to punch
the man in the face, but another policeman came by and calmed him down. They
then sat the arrested, handcuffed man (the 'x' in my little drawing,)down on the
ground in between the police cars, with his legs stretched out sort of
catty-cornered to the left. (I still didn't get it.) The man had clothes on.
With his hands cuffed behind his back, he appeared to have no arms as he sat
there. Because he had been sprayed with something so many times, his face was
blazing scarlet red. Suddenly, as one policeman walked past him, (he was so
drunk/drugged that he thought the police would assist him...) he raised his
head, turned it up toward the cop and opened his mouth in an agonized plea for
help.
!!!!! Suddenly I realized this was
exactly the scene (with interpretation of the symbols) I had seen while still
wide awake - about 20 minutes before the running & shouting woke me up. I stood
there looking out the front door, absolutely stunned.
The next day, my landlady said she didn't hear a thing! I would have thought I
was crazy, except that there were large shoe prints in the somewhat muddy ground
just by that basement window, and then the neighbor on that side came out and
asked very excitedly if I had heard all that commotion in the night. It appeared
the man was running from having done...something - and planned to break in
through that window.
I
was utterly disgusted by this 'vision'. First of all, I didn't want 'bells and
whistles'. Second, I saw no reason for the Powers that Be to send me messages of
danger or whatever if they were so obscure that I could never, ever interpret or
act on them! Shortly after that I went with a friend to a 'meditation/reiki
treatment' session, (I knew nothing of Reiki then and was just along for the
ride...) and one of the reiki practitioners was no help at all. When I
complained about this pre-cognition experience, she just said, more or less,
'So, ya had a little vision. So what? Don't worry about it.'
:)
Well, I thought if meditation would bring about this type of thing...hmmph.
Gradually, I just stopped meditating and for many years devoted myself to being
as practical as possible. (Mistake. It didn't work well for me, on any level.)
Certainly I was still interested in spiritual things, but I never went to church
or groups and had no practice of any kind for years. I was just trying to make
some money, watching TV, going to the mall and movies with my son... I was
having some fun, yes, especially with my delightful younger son - somewhat
steeped in what we call our culture.
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
Uncertain
I foresaw a 'video' related to a potential
break-in at my living quarters about 20 minutes before it occurred.
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Completely awake and alert.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Not at all.
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you feel during
the experience?
Intense
puzzlement and curiosity.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
noises?
No. It was
silent.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a light?
No
Did you meet or see any other
beings?
No
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
Yes Saw it with my own eyes about 1/2
hour later.
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes
Some vision outside the physical vision of
the '5 senses' was at play.
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
Uncertain Not this time - but experienced a
decided 'time warp' in another instance. I may report it later - but maybe not.
Painful associations.
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
No
Did you become aware of future
events?
Yes Received the information in
symbols, but it was accurate.
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts
following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain
I've had a number of experiences both before an after. Sounds dopey, but I have
some kind of 'power' at times. Well, we all do! But I am aware of it.
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes It actually disturbed me and
caused me to stop meditating and seeking spiritual development for a long time.
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
Along with my other experience,
all are affected.
Have you shared this experience
with others?
Yes My sons and friend believed me.
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
Wonder,
bewilderment, and (oddly, I guess,) annoyance!
What was the best and worst part of
your experience?
Best: In
retrospect, it's all quite fascinating. Worst: There was no way I could
interpret the little vision/video as what it was. (I believe it was a warning
from my Guides - or from myself - however you want to see it. :)
Is there anything else you would
like to add concerning the experience?
No, thank you.
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes All fine.
Please offer any suggestions you
may have to improve this questionnaire.
It is well put
together.