Carl J's Experience
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Experience description:
Before the experience: For two weeks I'd been sick, not feeling too well in my
stomach and when eating feeling dizziness, eventually starting having episodes
of melancholy about life and my ill feelings lasting around an hour or so at a
time and making me depressed. This illness was initially caused by what I think
was either drinking unfiltered water from a river on a trip or eating improperly
cooked turkey.
Eventually this sadness was unbearable one night as I couldn't sleep due to a
very heavy bout of depression lasting for hours and feeling nauseous to boot.
For the first ever time in my life (being mostly agnostic and never attended a
church, but believing in wishes and that good things come out of bad) I called
out with tears running down my face specifically to God or my dad (who passed
away when I was seven years old) to help me understand what was wrong and help
me.
Almost immediately, I felt my pain go away replaced by passive
listening/observing and calmness. A calm, gentle large white light came over my
vision briefly and told me to write two things down on my phone (one of the two
things was specific to overcoming this illness, which involved not doing a
particular 'sin' which I was doing everyday at the time (stealing food from
supermarkets), and the other came in handy about 6 months later to do with
investments in Bitcoins, which said 'no bitcoins', eventually saving me a lot of
money)
After I wrote these down, I seemed to be still on my bed but sat up straight,
feeling calm and content. My whole vision then slowly turned from the dark room,
to fizzy glowing white gold, and I felt like I was being lifted up or teleported
somewhere special, which felt incredibly exciting at the time. This place was in
the clouds somewhere not like Earth, with a
city or place in the clouds in the distance to the right of my centre of
vision. My first thought was that the city looked like Disney world, the main
Cinderella castle but much bigger, more towers and just magical. It looked
amazing and just gorgeous with the clouds all around and pinkish bluish sky.
I could also see myself in full view in this world, hard to describe with words
but sort of to the left of my centre of vision much closer than the castle, was
me as a black/void rectangle floating. It seemed I had a body but it was either
censored from vision or not created, as if I wasn't supposed to be there yet,
like a glitch, and was still an Earthly being. Even though I saw no other people
or things there, I got the feeling that they would be confused as to my presence
there as a void and possibly try to get away from me, which I found funny.
I was there for about 30 seconds, eventually coming back to my bed just as I
left it, sat upright and calm in the dark room. Lots of insights came to me
about life and my place in it, how not to worry about money or clothing or your
life, and find enjoyment and love, truth and excitement, make true friends and
be yourself.
Since this experience, for the past year I have had dreams showing me the day or
days to come, dream warnings about certain people who I have never met and then
later meet that day, and showing me distressing or memorable events in that day
and they happen and the dreams the night before help me overcome them calmly
without strong emotion in a way. It still surprises me to this day, also
recently I can tell when people are lying and cannot think of hurting or killing
anything now not even flies or bugs. I also feel a presence to the right of me
and sometimes see a glowing yellow/white alive, lighted swirling fiery piece of
energy to the lower right of my vision when I come to a truth in my mind or am
struggling to decide on something I find important. Also to my left a strong
invisible force if I'm about to do something not so wise, such as betting money)
it's not all amazing, I still feel lost sometimes and lonely as I'm still
finding myself at this stage. On days like this, certain lyrics from a song and
music will be in my head when waking, generally pleasant songs that give a
general feel for the day and words to live by, such as today it was 'One day my
father told me, live a life you will remember' and my dream said 'life is a
story, time is enjoyable each second and moment, live like this'. Yesterday I
was feeling a little cold on the inside so it was appreciated.
This experience and consequent 'psychic' powers have completely changed my
outlook on life and put me on the right track hopefully for rest of adulthood, I
understand some of my mission here is as a being to help certain people accept
themselves, teach them what I know and saw when they want to know or ponder
questions to me, also to make love and somehow create a small business with
somebody later in life.
At the time
of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No
Was the experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At what time during the
experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness? Mostly from the
point my pain went away and up until the next day when I woke up from my
slumber, then I felt fine, not ill anymore and feeling like my regular self but
with a new set of eyes and outlook
How did your highest level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal
everyday consciousness and alertness?
More
consciousness and alertness than normal
No runaway thoughts or uncertainties like
in everyday life, just curiosity and understanding of what I could feel and see
Please
compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
Vision was completely clear when seeing the other place in the sky, like ultra
high definitely reality. Also colors now and green and red
especially look more brilliant in life since this time.
Please
compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
No particular sounds at all, mostly just seeing and
'knowing' things, direct voice into my head at the start when told to write
things down
Did you see
or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
Peace, curiosity, childlike almost, some slight
sadness at one point
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel?
No
Did you see an unearthly
light?
Uncertain
See description
Did
you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable
voice?
I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly
origin
The first light which alleviated my pain and told
me to write things down, not sure who it was as I called out to God and my
father. Also the ball of energy that guides me sometimes in life nowadays.
Did you encounter or
become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by
name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
No
Did
you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
No
Did
you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did
you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
See description, mostly
the cloud like landscape and Disneyworld city.
Did time seem
to speed up or slow down?
Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or
lost all meaning
Time didn't seem to
matter as I was not in an earthly body where things deteriorate or change.
Did
you suddenly seem to understand everything?
Everything about myself or others
Some insights came to me about life here in this
universe and body, and continue to do so as I go on.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical
structure?
No
Did you
come to a border or point of no return?
I came to a
barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
Did scenes
from the future come to you?
Scenes
from my personal future
I had a dream recently that pinpointed the 23rd
of September as the day the world will end as we know it, also visions of a
plane crash in Tokyo and a huge warm flash in the sky sometime. Also I saw my
future partner when I asked God, he was standing on a boat wearing a suit and
looked just the way I imagined, like I already knew him, and look forward to
meeting him
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not)
continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or
does not) exist?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to
this lifetime?
No
During your experience, did you encounter any
specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or
unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s
meaning or purpose?
Yes
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s
difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not
shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?
No
Did you have a sense of
knowing special knowledge or purpose?
No
What occurred during your
experience included:
Content that
was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your
experience
Mostly very enlightening and interesting,
made me see that there is so much more to life than meets the eye.
How accurately do you
remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around
the time of the experience?
I remember the
experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time
of the experience
I can't forget that night
My experience directly resulted in:
Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
Yes
Many changes
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other
special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?
Yes
Started having psychic dreams, slowly
ramping up in intensity to this day where I can ask questions or look for
insight and my sleep usually provides an intelligent answer. Feeling like I can
read minds or know when somebody is lying to me although this part might just be
me becoming adult.
Are there one or several parts of your experience
that are especially meaningful or significant to you?
I remember the castle as the most
clear image, and brings me great peace when I see it in my mind.
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
Shared day after with my mum, friends,
etc. Some were interested, some were unsure about life's questions but I gave
them food for thought and help them with emotional or life problems if they ask
me and I give them the insights from my dreams.
Did you have any knowledge
of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
What did you believe about
the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real
It was real, and my precognitive gifts and
life changes since then prove it
What do you believe about
the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I love people
more and forgive much more easily, fell out of touch with some friends as I
wasn't being myself with them.
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
I feel like
religion can't grasp truly what life is, always teaching rules and regulations,
shame and guilt about yours or others actions, some unnecessary rituals and
beliefs, followers are rarely taught and reminded of self love or forgiveness of
others.
At any time
in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
Uncertain
I tried MDMA at a my friends house inn
June and felt my dad talking to me in the air briefly, showing me him as a boy,
and stroking my hair. It was a meditative experience, the expression of self
love and understanding of others actions on this drug was also incredible, and
taught me that with love 'you cannot give what you don't possess'. However that
drug seemed to stop my dreams for a while and drained my brain for a day or two
Did the questions asked and information that you
provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes