Carl J's Experience
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Experience description:

Before the experience: For two weeks I'd been sick, not feeling too well in my stomach and when eating feeling dizziness, eventually starting having episodes of melancholy about life and my ill feelings lasting around an hour or so at a time and making me depressed. This illness was initially caused by what I think was either drinking unfiltered water from a river on a trip or eating improperly cooked turkey.

Eventually this sadness was unbearable one night as I couldn't sleep due to a very heavy bout of depression lasting for hours and feeling nauseous to boot. For the first ever time in my life (being mostly agnostic and never attended a church, but believing in wishes and that good things come out of bad) I called out with tears running down my face specifically to God or my dad (who passed away when I was seven years old) to help me understand what was wrong and help me.

Almost immediately, I felt my pain go away replaced by passive listening/observing and calmness. A calm, gentle large white light came over my vision briefly and told me to write two things down on my phone (one of the two things was specific to overcoming this illness, which involved not doing a particular 'sin' which I was doing everyday at the time (stealing food from supermarkets), and the other came in handy about 6 months later to do with investments in Bitcoins, which said 'no bitcoins', eventually saving me a lot of money)

After I wrote these down, I seemed to be still on my bed but sat up straight, feeling calm and content. My whole vision then slowly turned from the dark room, to fizzy glowing white gold, and I felt like I was being lifted up or teleported somewhere special, which felt incredibly exciting at the time. This place was in the clouds somewhere not like Earth, with a  city or place in the clouds in the distance to the right of my centre of vision. My first thought was that the city looked like Disney world, the main Cinderella castle but much bigger, more towers and just magical. It looked amazing and just gorgeous with the clouds all around and pinkish bluish sky.

I could also see myself in full view in this world, hard to describe with words but sort of to the left of my centre of vision much closer than the castle, was me as a black/void rectangle floating. It seemed I had a body but it was either censored from vision or not created, as if I wasn't supposed to be there yet, like a glitch, and was still an Earthly being. Even though I saw no other people or things there, I got the feeling that they would be confused as to my presence there as a void and possibly try to get away from me, which I found funny.

I was there for about 30 seconds, eventually coming back to my bed just as I left it, sat upright and calm in the dark room. Lots of insights came to me about life and my place in it, how not to worry about money or clothing or your life, and find enjoyment and love, truth and excitement, make true friends and be yourself.

Since this experience, for the past year I have had dreams showing me the day or days to come, dream warnings about certain people who I have never met and then later meet that day, and showing me distressing or memorable events in that day and they happen and the dreams the night before help me overcome them calmly without strong emotion in a way. It still surprises me to this day, also recently I can tell when people are lying and cannot think of hurting or killing anything now not even flies or bugs. I also feel a presence to the right of me and sometimes see a glowing yellow/white alive, lighted swirling fiery piece of energy to the lower right of my vision when I come to a truth in my mind or am struggling to decide on something I find important. Also to my left a strong invisible force if I'm about to do something not so wise, such as betting money)

it's not all amazing, I still feel lost sometimes and lonely as I'm still finding myself at this stage. On days like this, certain lyrics from a song and music will be in my head when waking, generally pleasant songs that give a general feel for the day and words to live by, such as today it was 'One day my father told me, live a life you will remember' and my dream said 'life is a story, time is enjoyable each second and moment, live like this'. Yesterday I was feeling a little cold on the inside so it was appreciated.

This experience and consequent 'psychic' powers have completely changed my outlook on life and put me on the right track hopefully for rest of adulthood, I understand some of my mission here is as a being to help certain people accept themselves, teach them what I know and saw when they want to know or ponder questions to me, also to make love and somehow create a small business with somebody later in life.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   No 

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No    

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Mostly from the point my pain went away and up until the next day when I woke up from my slumber, then I felt fine, not ill anymore and feeling like my regular self but with a new set of eyes and outlook

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   No runaway thoughts or uncertainties like in everyday life, just curiosity and understanding of what I could feel and see

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   Vision was completely clear when seeing the other place in the sky, like ultra high definitely reality. Also colors now and green and red  especially look more brilliant in life since this time.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   No particular sounds at all, mostly just seeing and 'knowing' things, direct voice into my head at the start when told to write things down

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No  

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Peace, curiosity, childlike almost, some slight sadness at one point  

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No  

Did you see an unearthly light?   Uncertain   See description

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
The first light which alleviated my pain and told me to write things down, not sure who it was as I called out to God and my father. Also the ball of energy that guides me sometimes in life nowadays.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No  

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No  

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No  

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   A clearly mystical or unearthly realm

See description, mostly the cloud like landscape and Disneyworld city.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time didn't seem to matter as I was not in an earthly body where things deteriorate or change.


Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   Everything about myself or others
Some insights came to me about life here in this universe and body, and continue to do so as I go on.

I was told in a dream recently that 'You will learn more about LOVE as time goes on'

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

Did scenes from the future come to you?  Scenes from my personal future 
I had a dream recently that pinpointed the 23rd of September as the day the world will end as we know it, also visions of a plane crash in Tokyo and a huge warm flash in the sky sometime. Also I saw my future partner when I asked God, he was standing on a boat wearing a suit and looked just the way I imagined, like I already knew him, and look forward to meeting him


During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   Yes  

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No  

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No  

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No  

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   Mostly very enlightening and interesting, made me see that there is so much more to life than meets the eye.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   I can't forget that night  

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?  
Yes   Many changes

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   Started having psychic dreams, slowly ramping up in intensity to this day where I can ask questions or look for insight and my sleep usually provides an intelligent answer. Feeling like I can read minds or know when somebody is lying to me although this part might just be me becoming adult.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?    
I remember the castle as the most clear image, and brings me great peace when I see it in my mind.

Have you ever shared this experience with others?  
Yes  Shared day after with my mum, friends, etc. Some were interested, some were unsure about life's questions but I gave them food for thought and help them with emotional or life problems if they ask me and I give them the insights from my dreams.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No  

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real   It was real, and my precognitive gifts and life changes since then prove it

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real  

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I love people more and forgive much more easily, fell out of touch with some friends as I wasn't being myself with them.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   I feel like religion can't grasp truly what life is, always teaching rules and regulations, shame and guilt about yours or others actions, some unnecessary rituals and beliefs, followers are rarely taught and reminded of self love or forgiveness of others.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   Uncertain   I tried MDMA at a my friends house inn June and felt my dad talking to me in the air briefly, showing me him as a boy, and stroking my hair. It was a meditative experience, the expression of self love and understanding of others actions on this drug was also incredible, and taught me that with love 'you cannot give what you don't possess'. However that drug seemed to stop my dreams for a while and drained my brain for a day or two  

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes