Brooks B's Experience
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Experience description:
I had been
divorced for about 2 years after a 32 year marriage. I wanted to sell my house
for financial reasons, but I experienced a great deal of anxiety about letting
go of the last vestige of my former life and all the security I had left in the
world. I was torn between my need to free myself from the past and my fear of
letting go of it. One night
as I was about to drift off to sleep I was suddenly hovering close to the
ceiling, looking down upon a bed with a person lying in it. It was dark and I
could not distinguish any features of the person. I thought about wanting to
get closer so I could see who it was and as soon as I had the thought I was
hovering only 4 or 5 feet above the bed. At first I still didn't know the
person and then it suddenly occurred to me that it was MY body. I had no
emotional attachment to it whatsoever, only a curiosity. I realized with great
clarity that the body that slept on the bed was not me and that my "home" was
not that house. I knew my home was the universe and that "I" did not need that
body, that house, or the bed or pillow. I knew that I was perfectly safe
wherever I was and that the entire universe was my home and my bed. It was the
most liberating feeling. The
experience was very suddenly over and I drifted on to sleep. The next day and
to this very day, the experience affected me deeply and had a profound affect on
the way I think of the body and spirit, on security and our false sense of it,
and ultimately how safe I really am. I know that there is no security in
anything outside myself, including jobs, people, money or anything else in the
physical world. Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Very
conscious and alert. Very much in the moment.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
I
knew that I, the real me, had nothing to do with my body...it was truly just a
vehicle to enable my spirit to function on this planet.
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Curiosity,
understanding, awareness, comfort and security.
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
No
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Uncertain
I
definitely had eyes of some kind in order to see the room and the figure on the
bed, but other senses I am unsure of.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes
I
realized I was given an opportunity to deeply understand the difference between
the spirit and body.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Were
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
My
beliefs in the reality of spirit was enhanced and my attitudes toward what
security means changed dramatically.
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
I no longer
look outside myself for security...not with relationships, jobs, or religion.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
It's
more of an internal change...a knowing that I didn't have before and that
comforts me.
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes
I
think they believed me, but I doubt that they have been influenced. I planted a
seed.
What
emotions did you experience following your experience?
I was comforted
and felt privileged.
What
was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best part
was the absolute freedom from limitation. Worst part was perhaps a bit of
disorientation when I first looked at the figure on the bed and didn't know who
it was.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
I'd like
to do it again, at will.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
This
seems thorough.