Brandon's Experience
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Experience description:
The experience was out
of nowhere with really nothing to cause it. At the time my three cousins were
visiting. I loved their company and always enjoyed spending time with them. I am
an only child and generally very reserved around most people. But around them I
could just talk freely. More like chatting mindlessly if you will, like many
people admittedly do in life with one another.
So I was walking down
the hall towards my bedroom talking to one of my cousins, most likely on the way
to play some video game.
I can't really remember
the conversation, as it was quite honestly not anywhere as memorable as the OBE.
As I was just about to break the plane between the hallway to the room speaking
with my cousin; I all of the sudden pulled out to a view hovering about myself
looking down, like a fancy camera angle directors use in films.
And I was just watching
myself, and my body continued as if I wasn't even their walking, more
specifically, my body continued to speak on its own, mindlessly, like it didn't
even need me there to keep talking.
It very amazing and
shocking. Only lasting for about 5 seconds, and once I came back into my body I
immediately stopped the mindless blabber my body continued for me and questioned
my cousin about it. He stated that he noticed nothing.
The whole physical
experience was very unique and I wish I could feel the same thing once again,
but I don't know how or why it happened.
The only thing I really
got out of it is the sense of a lot of the things we say to one another (small
talk if you will) is really senseless and meaningless. I mean if my body just
continued blabbing without the need of my mind and consciousness, how important
could it be.
Since that time in my
life I feel like I have strayed for engaging in many conversions I feel are
pointless or trivial. It affects my ability to talk with many strangers, but I
feel like if I cant have a meaningful conversation with a person and just talk
about nothing just to get to know them, then maybe they are not worth meeting at
all. Just how I feel now after the experience.
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Completely awake and
aware. If anything I was very excited and hyper when speaking like kids do from
time to time
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
Not at all
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes There was no
form, just a view. Like a first person view in a shooting game. All I seemed to
be was a mass less flowing consciousness of myself looking down at my body.
What emotions did
you feel during the experience?
I was confused and
shocked at the time of the OBE. I was very much intrigued by it, but never
frightened.
Did you hear any
unusual sounds or noises?
No
LOCATION
DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
Yes As described
above, I said in my house the whole time just looking down at the conversation I
was having below.
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you notice how
your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes I could see and
hear just the same as I can at any time. My feeling smell and taste where not
really used for the brief time so I cant really comment on those senses.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Uncertain I did feel strange, as though I was no longer my
small-minded blabbering self. I don't know. One of my theories is that a higher
consciousness or more knowing version of myself was view this version of myself
and our consciousnesses converged for a split second above myself. I didn't feel
super powerful or smart, just more aware and at peace. Not like a 13 year old
child.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain I guess I didn't go beyond my ceiling as I would not have been
able to witness myself then. But then again I wasn't being held there. It seemed
like I wanted to watch myself for some reason.
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes As I wrote above. My perception of conversation or more specifically
mindless small talk changed. I no longer wish to be part of these conversations
as my experience gave me the feeling of the absurdity and uselessness of it.
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
Conversations with strangers has definitely been changed with my lack of
motivation to indulge them to the small talk they wish so much to engage in.
Leaving only awkwardness as they have nothing to really say. Only people that I
become close to due to some unavoidable reason, such as roommates,
classmates/project mates or very interesting unique people seem to connect with
me.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
No
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
Awe,
shock, interest.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The
best part was the experience. I don't really see a bad part in it all.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
None. Quite throughout. Got some information out of me that I never thought
about before.