Bonnie T's Experience
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Experience description:

This has happened to me about ten times all together throughout my life. It first happened when I was a kid - probably around 9 or 10 years old. I would be laying in bed trying to go to sleep and at some point (unsure of whether I had already started to fall asleep) my physical body literally paralyzes and I begin to float. Each time it happened in the same room in my grandmother's house and I seemed to float towards the window. My state of consciousness felt completely normal, I knew that my body was still in the bed and I was leaving it. I would get so scared that I would start trying to get back into my body by trying to scream or move, but none of that was possible. I am not sure how long it takes to get back, it feels like a few minutes. My whole body is completely paralyzed until I finally am able to open my eyes and slowly the sense of touch and feeling returns. My heart is always racing, feels like it's going to explode. I believe that's from the fear associated with the experience.  

As it happened again when I got a bit older, I started to become curious about how far I can get and what this is all about. So I would not fight it. I would allow myself to drift toward the window and unfortunately nothing I don't make it much further.  

I left to go to the states and many years after I had spent the night at grandma's house I visited her again and stayed in that same bedroom. Sure enough it happened again. I hadn't forgotten about it over the years, but I didn't consciously expect it to happen. It was quite frightening again. Even as an adult, I fought it as hard as I could and felt that it lasted a bit longer that what I remember. Also this time around I didn't float up to high, I was just beginning to drift off when I started fighting it rigorously (really just in my mind because I couldn't move) and then when I came back into my body, and felt the paralysis going away it took a while to calm down. I felt like there was someone or something else in the room with me. I was terrified.  

So in brief, as far as I can remember this kind of thing has only happened to me in my grandma's house and in that particular bedroom. A piece of additional info is that I am pretty sure that that's the bedroom where I was conceived (that was my parents' bedroom for a while before they moved out).

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain     

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           I believe awake, but each time it happens when I am actually trying to doze off.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   NO. Definitely not. It was as real as walking or talking.

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     I didn't get too far, so the separation wasn't so distinct, but I literally felt like I was drifting towards the window.

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?            In most cases fear that I was dying - based on nothing else but imagery from the media where a dying person's soul floats away.

 Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           No.

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No            I was still in the room, the room was as it always is.

 Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes    

After it happened a couple times, I decided to experiment to see how far I would get, but I didn't get past the window. It almost felt like I didn't exactly know how to do it.

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          No response      My body was not working. I only found that out when I tried to move and stop myself from floating away. Prior to that, nothing felt weird.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             Yes     The window I believe was my limiting structure.

 Did you become aware of future events?       No      

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes     YES!!! Scared, paralyzed, it takes a few minutes to be able to regain my senses after I am back into my body.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         Uncertain     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Uncertain     

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       It hasn't, I have told very few people. The first time it happened I told my mom only. I was a kid and felt that nobody would have believed me. I am pretty sure I told her a couple more times. I also told hr about this last experience. This time I told my dad too and he got scared for my health.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain     

Have you shared this experience with others?         No response            See above. I have also briefly mentioned it to my husband, but I am pretty sure that he doesn't think much of it, if he even remember he probably thinks it was a dream.

 What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Fear and later curiosity.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part is that after this has happened to my accidentally a few times, I am sure that this is something that I can work on and develop and maybe make us of, but the worst part feeling paralyzed, that's what brings on the sense of panic!

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No       It has happened a few times, but medications or drugs have never been a factor!

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes