Bonnie's Experience
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Experience description:
I woke up at 230 AM or
so to check on my dogs and after I got back into bed my brain was going into
overdrive, not letting me fall back to sleep, so I tried the Silva 1-2-3 method
to relax. I got to 2. Then I start seeing images and then I hear my Mom
talking to me (she passed away 10 years ago). I addressed her directly and told
her that I missed our Saturdays together. At that moment, my back began to
vibrate and I felt myself lifting out of my body. I started falling and felt
disoriented so I asked for awareness now and began to float more evenly. I read
this in an audio book I downloaded on the subject because I had a similar
experience a month or so ago and was nervous about the experience and needed to
know what was going on and what to do about it. This advice actually helped
somewhat and I managed to float myself through my bedroom door and over to my
dog�s area.
Snaggles saw me but if
Meka did she didn�t show it because she just walked off into the kitchen. I
settled on the ground near Snaggles and tried to hold her but she went through
my arms. I then came back to my body. I do not remember how or what the
trigger was. I felt drugged when I got back in my body and I immediately tried
to fight falling asleep but did eventually. At some point I hear a lady (I
envision she is older and white haired and I am semi awake) saying that
something needs to be done about all these pillows on the bed and she is going
to take some. I start to pick up the pillows when I realize she is a spirit and
she doesn�t need pillows. I talk directly to her and ask �Why do you need
pillows anyways?�
At this point my back
begins to vibrate and I am out of body again. I float up to the light fixture
and I look on the wall and I can see my disembodied self shadowed there. I do
not look like myself, I am round in the middle with long skinny fingers. I
realize that I am not yet where I need to be in making myself look normal yet.
This is something that will come with time. I look over to the corner of the
room and I see a tall shadow in the corner of the wall. I can sense it is male;
it doesn�t seem menacing, but I wasn�t ready to deal with it yet so I started to
yell for my physical body. It took longer that I had expected but I finally
came back. I stayed awake until my alarm went off and didn�t have any more
OBEs but I had to fight not falling back into that state.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
Yes I took some Gaba which I doubt has any affect on OBEs. I also took it
at 4pm and the OBE was after 2am the next morning.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Semi
conscious. I was aware I was talking to someone and heard my own voice speaking
on both occasions right before I left my body.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Not
really, this seemed very different. It was as real as walking through my house
normally but I was floating instead.
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes I definitely felt the transition of my spirit body coming out of my
physical body.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
I
felt like I was learning something and I was curious - but there was also a
point where I felt fear.
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
I
heard like a lightening crack? Only way I can describe it.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No I was only in my house.
Did
you see a light?
No There was a kind of subdued light available, but no bright lights or
anything like that.
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Uncertain I saw the shadow of a being. I could feel it.
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
Yes
I
tried to float - I was falling at first so I was trying really hard to
concentrate on being able to move around. One thing I need to mention is that I
was trying to float through my bedroom door out to the hallway and I was having
trouble. I was able to reach through the door and pull myself via the door
jam. I find this odd; I am going through everything else - I can't even hold my
dog. The very first time this happened to me I went straight over to my dog
Snaggles and fell on the floor in front of her but was half in and half out of
her baby gate.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
Yes No smell, no hearing that I recall. I could see but it was kind of hazy
at some times. I only remember touch the one time I used the door jam to pull
myself through a door.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
No Only that there was more that I needed to do with my spirit - that
I was not quite whole or right yet.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the
body?
Yes In the last instance I really wanted back in my body and asked to do so.
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes These past experiences have made me aware that there is more than what I
see everyday. It is one thing to hear about it; completely another to
experience it. I am thrilled and scared at the same time.
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
Not
yet.
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No Only how I feel about the spirit body and how there is somewhere other
than here - the physical.
Have you shared this experience with others?
No I have not told my family - this form I am filling out right now
constitutes the whole of my sharing of these experiences. I have lots of
questions and don't believe they would be able to help.
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
Anxiety and a sense of happiness both. I am afraid of this happening again, but
I know if I get the feeling to go I will.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The
best moment was when I was able to control where I was going. The worst part
was knowing there was an entity in the room with me. While I didn't get any bad
vibes, I was still ready to go back at that point.
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
Not
at this time.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes to the best of my ability and happy to get this off my chest.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
Not
at this time.