Bob S's Experience
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Experience description:
I would like to relate an event that first brought about my
spiritual awakening in the year 2000. I have told this to only close family
members and some whom I felt would benefit from the information. I think the
time is right to pass this on.
First some background.
I was baptized and raised as a Catholic. While in elementary school, I also
attended CCD every Sunday and my family always went to Church every Sunday and
Holy Day of Obligation. I was the youngest and the last left in the household at
the time my father died in 1976 - I had just started the 11th grade. After he
was gone, I gradually stopped going to Church except for random occasions as I
went on with my life. After marrying and leaving the Army in the mid 80�s, I
read different versions of the Bible several times, took religious
correspondence courses, and setup a prayer process; I even attended a Billy
Graham Crusade (including going down to the stage at the end when invited), and
my wife was baptized in a Korean Baptist Church. We attended various Church
services though we never established a regular Church going routine. In May of
2000, my brother-in-law John died. After the process was over, I began to thirst
for spiritual knowledge and began searching the Internet for information. I read
every article and experience I could find especially concerning prophecies,
Marian events, and near death experiences (www.near-death.com was especially
useful). This is where I first read an excerpt of Betty Eadie�s book. In July of
2000, a coworker lent me his copy of Embraced by the Light and so my experience
begins. What happened did so quickly and it was only after it was over that the
full nature of it struck home.
I read the entire book
right after eating dinner on a weeknight. I was in a heightened sense of
spirituality that kept increasing the more I read the book. After finishing the
book, I decided to go into the middle bedroom to ask the Creator a question. My
wife was watching TV in another room. As I began to make my way to this room, I
began to feel a physical pressure on my chest that increased the closer I got to
the room. By the time I had knelt down at the bed, the pressure was so great
that I began to have trouble breathing. I can�t remember how long it took before
I asked the question but it seemed like an eternity. So I asked the Creator:
How come we don�t have
any children?
He instantly replied:
Because you wanted it
that way.
I immediately realized
two things:
1. A small part of what
the book covered was how we each decide, along with the Creator, what the basics
of our lives will be before we come down to the physical realm. This was
instantly verified � as it pertained to me (not my wife though).
2. The reason why I had
trouble breathing was because there was a presence in the room that did not want
me to ask the question. The enemy!
Still feeling the
pressure, I became covered in goose bumps, staggered out of the room, found my
wife, don�t remember what I said, she tried to calm me down, and said let us go
to bed. So we went to bed. However, the presence followed us into our bedroom
and I began to silently pray to the Creator to send his warrior angels to chase
the presence away. After about 5 minutes of praying, I felt the presence leave
and I fell asleep exhausted.
The communication I
received was in the same format as some of those who have had near death
experiences have described � not through the spoken word but through the mind
like mental telepathy; I heard the words written in my mind. Since it was
probably the Creator himself who replied to me (though it could have been the
Master), the presence was more than likely Satan himself. I did not feel a sense
of evil like in the Exorcist, rather it was a very, very strong sense of power
that wanted to use force to get its way.
So my spiritual
awakening began after so many years of dormancy. Since then, I have continued to
expand my awareness by reading and seeking and praying. I am no closer to being
perfect than I was before but I have learned to accept my limitations and to try
not to commit the big sins. I encourage all who read this to expand your
spiritual knowledge and awareness through all avenues available, and to be more
tolerant to others. I will also state that I have absolutely nothing to gain
from writing about this other than a greater sense of the common good; in
addition, I swear that I have written the truth as I remember it.
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
At
what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness
and alertness?
The entire time plus 15 minutes.
How
did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience
compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was
different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please
explain:
The entire time plus 15 minutes.
Did
your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect,
such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
No
Did
your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any
aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness,
etc.)?
No
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Respect for the Creator, Fear for the Enemy.
Did
you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
No
Did
you see a light?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did
you experience a review of past events in your life?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes We don't have any children and, medically, it is not possible. We had
even tried IVF in 1997.
Did
you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or
dimensions?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes However, it simply reinforced something that I had just read.
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
No
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
you did not have prior to the experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes Years. I sent this same document to my brothers and sister several years
ago and got two responses, thanking me for sharing. People either don't want to
talk about the Spiritual Realm, think about physical death, are atheists, or are
confined by strict religious beliefs IMO.
Did
you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes I had started reading about them the month prior to the experience.
How
did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real After a year or so, I allowed it to fade much
like we do after someone dies. However, the economic collapse in 2008 prompted
me to share it with my siblings. When our oldest cat died last month, I began to
search the internet again for my knowledge. I feel a responsibility to share
this with everyone in the world.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
The
entire process. Not many experience something like this while in this physical
world; usually you have to be a religious person who is worthy of the
experience. I do not feel myself worthy.
How
do you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real Same as before. This did not occur in
the spiritual realm but in this physical realm.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
My
wife is somewhat afraid; however, I have encouraged her to pursue reading of
spiritual experiences on the internet for herself (such as at your site and
near-death.com). Since she is Korean, we are in the process of getting her
computer setup to translate and, hopefully, not lose the meaning of articles
during the translation.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Pray
more, read religious and philosophical material from all areas and religions,
and have become far more tolerant of others.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
No.
Did
the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes The document I provided says it all.
Are
there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?
No.