Benjamin O's Experience
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Experience description:
Then
all of a sudden, it was pure white...it was so white that I couldn't see
anything. The wonderful sensation remained the same, and I heard a voice say,
"now you know your way home". Immediately, I started back down the way I had
come. Immediately I felt panicky, not wanting to leave. Then it was like my
life was being handed back to me, and I didn't want it. Over and over it was
being handed to me and I tried to reject it. I had a sense that I was being
told that my life would be happy and okay. I saw images of my family and just
felt as if I was being told it was going to be just fine in the future; that I
would be happy later in life. I still tried to refuse the whole way back. I
still felt the same during this though; I was not frustrated or angry as I
refused...its hard to explain. I just didn't want my life back, I wanted to
stay where I had gone. I stopped just above my body still sitting in the same
position with my head in my hands, and I heard the voice again "never forget
this".
I
was back. I lifted my head and felt confused. Had this just really
happened?!? I came out of the bathroom clearly shaken by the experience to my
girlfriend, who is now my wife, and when she asked what was wrong, I told her
what had just happened. I didn't feel the same as I did during the experience,
but the pain I had been feeling prior to entering the restroom was gone.
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
I
was at my girlfriends house and was feeling sick. I have had a severe case of
IBS for several years at this point, and was experiencing a lot of pain and had
,to use the restroom. In the restroom, I was praying and asking God to take the
pain away as he had done many times before due to the severity and not being in
a comfortable place to feel like this. The next thing I knew, I was over my
body at the ceiling looking down on myself with my head in my hands. At about
the time I was thinking "what in the world", I started floating uncontrollably
into the sky. I went through the roof of the house and could see the traffic on
the highway nearby moving and could see cars at the nearby shopping strip
driving in the parking lot. I continued to float higher in the sky seeing all
of the details one would see being in the air high above everything. I
continued into space seeing the stars pass by me, and at this point I noticed
that I felt no pain. I noticed then that I felt as if there were no negative
emotions/sensations in my spirit (I didn't see a body nor feel as if I had one,
but just felt there if that makes any sense). The feeling I felt was amazing.
It was the best feeling I had ever felt in my life leading up to this point and
ever since. I felt no pain, no suffering, no anger, no sadness, It was almost
as if losing all of emotional senses except for a feeling of pure joy. After
traveling past the stars, it just got pitch-black for a moment.
Any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Was
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
Yes It is difficult to describe how wonderful I felt during the
experience...never felt that good before the experience or since
At
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
event?
No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
the
same as when I am awake
Was the experience dream like in any way?
no
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
only
joy, all other emotions were gone as if I could no longer experience them
Did
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
not
unusual per say, but a voice
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did
you see a light?
Yes
Did
you meet or see any other beings?
Uncertain never saw them, just heard one
Did
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
No
Did
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
different?
No
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
No
Did
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No
Did
you become aware of future events?
Uncertain no particular event, just a sense that my future life would be
happy
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the
body?
Yes I was aware that I was returning and didn't want to go
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain Ii is as if I can feel peoples emotions that are close to me. I
can feel their sadness, frustration, happiness, etc. more so and in a different
way than before
Did
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes I am not as concerned about things of this world, I am thinking more
about heaven and wanting to be there. I care more about people than I did
before.
How
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
Career choices?
not
really
Has
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes reactions were positive. I was then told that my mother, grandfather on
her side, and great grandmother on her side had all had experiences but not the
same as mine
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
confused, happy, just felt better all around
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
best
part was the sensation on pure joy, there were no negative aspects of the
experience
Is
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
no
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes