Benjamin B Experience
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Experience description:
This memory is of an experience in my very, very early life. I am unable to
pinpoint this in time; it perhaps occurred outside time - ie pre-birth. It has
sat at the back of my consciousness all my life. It didn't excite my curiosity
or interest until I started reading about near-death experiences, to which it
bears some resemblance.
I
now believe the following to be a PBE. I am in a dark space and in what feels
like a large chair. The chair is silver and looks almost futuristic, or even
spacecraft-like. I am speeding through the dark in a straight line, faster and
faster, towards white light. The faster I go and the closer I get to the light,
the harder I am finding it to breathe. Even so, I have no emotions like fear or
panic, but there is a feeling of resistance. I remember no sound. I feel this
happened to me a few times, and I have no rational explanation for it. I have
always felt this to be experiential in its imprint on my memory, rather than
dreamlike.
Reading about pre-birth experience has given me an explanatory framework to make
sense of this completely anomalous memory. I have had a connection to Christ all
my life and am very sensitive.
It is possible that my mind reconstructed the
experience of birth as a memory or repetitive dream. But its impact was more
indicative of experience rather than dream. It seemed to happen multiple times,
and I speculate that this was a way of my holding on to this experience/memory
or amplifying it mnemonically.
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in
words?
No
At the time of this experience, was there an
associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness
during the experience?
Normal
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No. It was experiential.
Did you experience a separation of your
consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
I certainly felt I had a face as I felt
pressure on it, inhibiting breathing.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?
A
feeling of resistance, of something onerous.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
No.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did
you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious
teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing
creatures?
No
Did you see a light?
Yes
The light was very white and clean. It didn't excite any fear, but perhaps
some trepidation.
Did you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did you experiment while out of the body or in
another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people
or events during your experience that could be verified later?
No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and
if so, how were they different?
No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain
The only variation of my sense of time was
that this seemed to happen several times over.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special
knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical
structure?
Uncertain
I felt hemmed into the chair but not
unjustly or unfairly so.
Did you become aware of future events?
No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision
regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other
special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the
experience?
No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs
following the experience?
No
How has the experience affected your
relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
This has had no discernible affect on any aspect of my life.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of
your experience?
No
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes
My parents.
What emotions did you experience following your
experience?
Trepidation, a little excitement, resistance, but no fear.
What was the best and worst part of your
experience?
I didn't feel any discomfort or pain, and the light was very
white. There was a slight feeling of excitement.
Is there anything else you would like to add
concerning the experience?
I discarded the experience a long time ago as something either
that I simply couldn't explain, or that it was very normal and commonplace.
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
No
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes I have recounted this experience as
exhaustively as I can. It defies any sensory impression or physical experience
I've had bodily. I can think of no temporal event to attribute it to. Though the
memory is meagre and not really extensive, it is nevertheless distinct.