Behnam R's Experience
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At the age of 9 years old, I was sleeping like other nights but saw a strange dream. In this dream there was nothing special, no human, no house, no nothing. An unknown source was lighting up the space, but it was a weak light that was gradually getting stronger. There was dust all around me which had filled the air around and I hardly could see 30 feet or so. I looked around carefully and noticed that I don�t need to breath. It was not surprising for me because I usually knew when I was dreaming and always breathed, but this one was completely different. The lighter it got the more I felt that this is real (and not a dream), but I still tried telling myself that this must be a dream! Because I could not even imagine that I could have died. I was only 9 years old. In the midst of this I saw two strangers which I never had seen before come towards me. I had not noticed them coming. When I looked more carefully I realized that their face doesn�t have details. They stood on my both sides and without any warning grabbed my arms. They were so powerful that I felt their power is radiating out from their body, like light rays. As they had grabbed me hard, they didn�t move! I looked at the one on my right side and asked him �who are you�? But I didn�t hear any responses, and so I repeated the question. I noticed that I could talk to them while there was no air around me, and I got surprised. (Please note that I had good general knowledge relative to my age, and still am like that, and it was not uncommon for me to have that kind of logic in that age. But at that situation it seemed that my knowledge and increased a lot). It was there that I noticed that I am not moving my lips while talking! The person on my left answered me with a rough voice: �You have died and now we have to take you to answer for your sins!� (if you think what sins a 9 years old kid could have, it is enough to say that at the first grade of elementary school I tried seriously to rape one my classmates!!! I won�t enter into other things I have done as it is too embarrassing). I replied to them that I know I am dreaming and I know you guys cannot do me any real harm, and of course I was sure about what I said. With this understanding, I let them take me wherever they like. After a few seconds or minutes or even hours (time had lost its real meaning), I repeated in a joking way: �Do you think I am stupid? I know it is night and I was sleeping and I am seeing all this in my dream�. The reason I repeated this was to see some weakness in them or may be to change my situation. But the answer I received from them was so horrifying that believing it for me was crazy. They told me: �You are not stupid, but you are stupid enough to think that an accident should happen in order for you to die. But death is this simple as you see! If you want to make sure you have died, all is needed is to look under your feet!� I immediately looked under my feet. I first saw the ground I was walking on. It had a reddish soil which looked like the Mars. When I looked more carefully I noticed that I am seeing myself (from outside) apparently sleeping, exactly the same way I had fallen sleep and with the same cloth and in the same room. Instantly fear filled my entire being. I realized I am not sleeping and I am really dead and they are seriously taking me for punishment. As soon as I believed my own death, that dust around me went back to maybe a kilometer and space got lighter without the source of light being apparent. My understanding about myself increased by a 1000 fold, in a way that I realized I am not 9 years old and don�t have the body of a 9 years old! I was maybe 30 years old. I started screaming from fear and hopelessly was trying to rid myself from the grip of those two, who had no gender by the way. I wanted to get to my body and enter it again! But they were extremely strong and although I was trying with all my might, I couldn�t even slightly disturb their movements. My field of view was more than 180 degrees and I had the wisdom of a 30 years old man. I tried to cry so maybe they would feel pity for me, but there was nothing as tear coming out! I begged that I am only a 9 years old kid and I want to live and it is still early for me to die and I have so many dreams and want to do good deeds and I am so sorry about who I have been in the past.

I was screaming with all my might, but my voice was not getting any louder and had a normal power. Until I don�t know what happened but they suddenly said together in an authoritative and strong tone that if I return to life, not only I won�t turn into a good human being, I would be very evil and would destroy and take many lives and I am already a monster, let alone when I would have more time in life! When I heard this it was like I got drained from all my power and energy. I easily stopped resisting, because I realized that they know me very well and I cannot act and hide my true face in front of them. I saw no choice but to surrender. After I stopped resisting, my fear subsided and I realized that although we have come a long way, nothing still has changed (in the scenery) around me, and it was still light with the dust in far away! Suddenly the world around me started to change, like we entered a new world or maybe a it was suddenly created around me (I don�t know exactly what happened and which one is correct). I looked carefully and I realized that I could see hundreds of kilometers very easily, and I could see even farther away if I want. The first thing that got my attention was a person who was ahead of us, his back to us. There was another person in front of him. I could not estimate my distance to him, maybe 10,000 kilometers or more (my eye sight were increased and the land there was perfectly flat). In one moment, it was like our speed increased indefinitely and I found myself a couple of feet from him!!! Although I was surprised how such a thing is possible, I looked ahead and saw that there were not just those two, but there were thousands and thousands of humans standing in what looked like a line and are waiting for something! I looked back (without turning my head, I could easily see my back). I saw that more people are being added to this line and the line is growing behind me. Some of them like me had two or more guards escorting them and some of them were by themselves. All the guards looked exactly like my guards with absolutely no difference in the looks, no face details, no gender, no feeling. The people (in the line) had face but no one talked to another person. Yet, I could understand their feelings! Some of them were even more frightened than me and some of them were happy and content. But what was common between all of them was: 1. All were the same age, 2. No body had a gender, same as myself. 3. Everybody was in a state of surrender, like myself. 

This line was moving forward, sometimes slowly and sometimes fast, and I was going along. I tried to look to the front of the line to find out why are in a line and where are we going (now I wish I never had probed that). What I saw was so horrific that if I bring just a little of that horror to earth, everybody dies here! In front of the line a person was sitting behind a simple desk and had a big book open the size of a rug in front of him open. Whoever was his turn, the person behind the desk would page through his book and would ask him some questions and would send the person in the line to some direction. I cannot say exactly what I saw and what they had prepared for me and how big was the fear there. But I think I saw what they call the bridge of �Sarat� (in Islamic theology, bridge of �Sarat� is a bridge that people need to pass through to get to heaven). Behind the person at the desk was something like a valley. The edges of the valley was very straight and flat, like a perfect rectangle with a limited width but unlimited length. It was there that I noticed there were red and black flames of a horrendous fire coming out of the valley. The redness of the soil under our feet was from the heat of that valley. (If I say that the flames were like a forest on fire or even like the close up images of Sun shown on TV, I still have not described it thoroughly. It could be resembled to lava from volcanos multiplied by a billion). There was a bridge on that valley without any extra support, like a black paved road that wend from one side to other side of the valley. Any body who would talk to the person at desk would be sent to that valley and would walk on that bridge. Some people would pass the bridge in like less than a second and some others would get almost to middle of that bridge but suddenly the bridge gave away under their feet and disappear. Some other would pass through the bridge but very slowly and some others would fall down as soon as they stepped on the bridge. There was a person on the other side of the bridge who radiated a very bright light and looked familiar. He was so brilliant that you cannot imagine, maybe thousands of times brighter than Sun. He would encourage every person with great excitement and hope to get to the other side, regardless of what they had done. He kept saying don�t fear and refer to your own hearts and call God in order not to fall into fire. (At that age I knew nothing about the bridge of Sarat and vastness of hell. Only my father had taught us that if we do something bad and don�t listen to our parents God would put you in fire!)

It took maybe minutes or hours until it was my turn. Interestingly, the face of the person behind the desk had almost all the details. But like there was a mesh on his face and his face looked a bit vague. But he too didn�t use his lips to talk. I was hearing his voice inside me (maybe it was telepathy). He asked me if I knew that I am dead? I said yes. He asked do I know that I have to pass that bridge too? I said yes with great sadness (I knew most likely I would fall into the valley). He said are you �Behnam� the son of � the son of �? I first wanted to lie to somehow save myself or maybe they return me. But I told myself if they find out I am lying it will be worse and they would say what a bad person who even lies here. While I was thinking all these thoughts I was also looking at his face. He looked quite different than the guards and had feelings and there was a excitement and energy in his look and was waiting for my response. I became certain that he is seeing my thoughts and knows I am not sure between telling the truth or lying. So I told the truth. After my response he looked at his book which now looked like a normal size book. Every time he turned a page, it would make no difference in the thicknesses of pages on this or that side of the book ( I felt that he knew what he is going to read but hesitating on purpose to see how do I react). Eventually he told me: �Your name is not here and essentially you are not supposed to be dead yet. God just wanted to give you a serious warning so you get your act together. Your situation is very bad and you better take these events seriously.�

I felt a great peace. It was like the air there (if you there was any air), became spring like. It was not cold, not hot. I had no fear any more, and only felt an infinite peace and love. I looked around me to find the source of that love. In my utter surprise I saw the great person who was on the other side of the bridge next to me! With hesitation (I was not sure if I am allowed to talk to him) I asked him who are you? Before my sentence finishes he replied �Why do you ask? You know who I am�. I had no answer. I asked what should I do and what path should I take in my life to be able to pass that bridge? He replied again �You know yourself�. This time I asked him with confidence if he lets me go back to life? He said �This is a place where no one returns from. Till now only 16 people were allowed to return to life from here� (I remember clearly he said 16) . He continued �You could return before seeing this place, and many people have returned to life before seeing here. But God wanted to show you here so you turn to a good person in future and do good deeds. You are very lucky that God loved you so much that you got here and he lets you return!� I asked how about the others? What happens to them? He said �They will fall into their own sin and will fell the feelings of those they have hurt for eternity and will keep being tortured�

I felt like I might have asked too many questions and was afraid he might get mad at me. So I asked how should I return? I don�t know what to do? He said �All you have to do is look behind you. You will see a door. Just pass through that door and don�t look back to see these people. This simple!� As soon as I looked back (without turning my head, it was like my body flipped to the other direction) I saw a wall with infinite width and length which had just one door. I moved towards the door and turned its knob. Instantly I felt I am falling with great speed, so much so that I was sure if I hit the ground like that I would die. Suddenly I saw my body and slammed back into my body severely. My senses kicked in again but as much as I tried I could not breath. It was like I had not breathed to that moment, like a new born baby with her first breath. My chest was bursting from pain. The room was dark and I felt my muscles are moving again. I hurried and got off my bed and ran to my sister�s room (I still could not breath), and threw myself on her. She screamed and got up quickly and turned on the light. As soon as she saw me in that situation it was like she has just seen a ghost and she got pale. I was really suffocating again and my struggle to breath was not working and I was grabbing on my own chest. My father got up from my sister�s scream and rushed into the room and asked her what has happened. My sister, horrified, just pointed to me with her finger. I don�t know how but my dad realized I cannot breath and hit my back very hard. It seemed this opened my breathing passage but I passed out. When I woke up again I was in a hospital. My dad said the food in my stomach had returned into my mouth while asleep and had blocked my breathing passage and that I probably have waken up within a few seconds and the rest of the story.

Now that I am alive, first I wanted to express my opinion about my experience. From what I read from other NDEs I have read on the Internet, none of them was like mine. Based on what that person with great light told me about only 16 people being able to return from that place, I think other NDEs are just like a short glimpse of the other world but mine was like a few min movie clip. I mean they have not entered more advanced phases of the other world and lots of their memories has been mixed with their NDE experience. And of course their experiences are contradictory and biased. I mean they have tried to present what was their belief, or justify what they have seen. While for me, with my young age and despite my relatively high IQ and knowledge I had no imagination of hell and the bridge of Sarat and guards and book and interrogation style! I reflected all I had seen here without a bias. Secondly, why am I saying that others have only seen a glimpse of afterlife? Because 5 very important and continuing events happened in my life that has separated me from other NDEers, which sometimes make me very happy and sometime very sad:

1.    In an unbelievable way, whenever I meet someone for the first time, after 5 to 10 min taking to him I can intuitively can guess 98% of his behavior and whether he is telling the truth or not and if he is loyal or not or if he will act on his decision in near future (like within 6 months or so). I can recognize his personal traits and almost can read him like a book.

2.    Whenever I simply ask a deceased love one, they will soon come to my dreams and I can talk to them about past and future and lots of other things which has helped me a lot to make right decisions.

3.    I don�t know anyone who has followed my advice and ever regretted it, whether it was about materialistic things or spiritual advice. Of course I know a lot of people who have later regretted not following my advice to them.

4.    People who live with me for like 4 months, they all admit that they feel others� presences around and even hear them! Of course I rarely notice these things, but somehow know it to be true and there are presences who come and go around me. Or maybe it is the power of my unconscious mind which affects the world around me, if such power do exists.

5.    The most important and again most relevant and continuing and unbelievable thing that has been happening for me since then is seeing the future very clearly with very few percentage of error. As soon as I sleep this starts and continues until I wake up again, which I explain in more details below.

 

Exactly 2 days after that incidence, a new adventure started for me. As soon as I slept, I would woke up in another realm which was also Earth bound and would experience a different life or thing! I mean when I was up here I was sleeping there and vice versa (I hope I have explained it clearly). In summary, from the 3rd grade of elementary school through 5th grade, every night I slept I would wake up in a different neighborhood and different house, living with my family there. In that dream no events were repetitive and I was gradually growing up and got to know people in the neighborhood until I knew every body there, including their names. Interestingly, I fell in love also (that love has a kid now!). I was 25 years old in that dream (can you believe this?), with long hairs and a green and white short sleeve t-shirt. I was standing in the yard and my father was talking to our neighbor about earthquake (our neighbor name in my dream was Farzaad Moradi). It was night there and at that moment a powerful earthquake hit there and destroyed every thing. I saw that my family died under the ruins. I saw me and my father were being smashed under the debris that were up to our chest (this was all from my own first person perspective, not the 3rd person observer, like all my dream. But in certain dreams that are chaotic I become 3rd person sometimes). In that moment I didn�t even care about the death of my family, except my dad who I tried to save but he finally died and I died too and I woke up.

 

یعنی دقیقا تو همین دنیا و اونقدر گریه کردم تا همه بیدار شدن و منو بقل کردن تا آروم بشم(کلاس پنجم بودم دیگه)اون خواب ها هم با مرگ من در اون زندگی دیگه قطع شد و اثری ازشون نموند و فقط خواب هایی از آینده ای که من توش نبودم و خانواده من هم نبود می دیدم مثل زلزله بم یا جنگ آمریکا با عراق و خیلی از چیزای دیگه.

وقتی کلاس پنجم من به نیمه سال رسید مادرم تصادف کرد و در نهایت ماجرا جوری شد که به صورت معجزه آسایی زنده موند و نمی دونم چی شد که ما خونمون رو فروختیم!اون زمان کسی به من به عنوان یک شخص بزرگ سال نگاه نمی کرد برای همین هم وقتی خونه رو انتخاب کرده بودن من کلا بی اطلاع بودم و نمی دونستم کجا خریدن تا زمانی که قرار شد 2 روز بعد خرید اسباب کشی کنیم.مادرم به من گفت دوست داری خونه جدید رو ببینی؟من هم با خوشحالی موافقت کردم و برای خرید نان و دیدن خونه جدید رفتیم بیرون.زمانی که به خونه نزدیک می شدیم با اینکه من اصلا به صورت فیزیکی به اون منطقه نرفته بودم اما احساس آشنایی با اونجا داشتم و وقتی به کوچه مورد نظر رسیدیم من سر کوچه عملا قفل کردم و حرکت نمی کردم. چون به شکل باور نکردنی دقیقا همون محله ای بود که من 3 سال در خواب هام توش زندگی کرده بودم.(مادرم حواسش نبود من پشت سرش نمیام و همین جوری جلو می رفت)در نهایت از توی کوچه خونه رو به من نشون داد(البته ما کلید نداشتیم واردش بشیم) و من هم مطمئن شدم یا دیوانه دارم میشم یا دوباره دارم خواب می بینم.چون برای من غیر قابل باور بود که 3 سال خواب من حقیقت داشته باشه!به مادرم گفتم 2تا اتاق داره؟ با تعجب گفت بابات واست گفته؟که من جوابی ندادم و کلا خودم رو زدم به اون راه.و در نهایت ما اسباب کشی کردیم و دقیقا همون روز اولی که ما در خونه جدید بودیم و هنوز وسایل رو جای گذاری نکرده بودیم زنگ خونه به صدا در آومد و من هم از همه کوچیکتر بودم و به من گفتن برو ببین کیه(آیفون نداشت خونه از این زنگ بلبلی ها بود!)شما باور نکن چون من هم باورم نمی شه! 2 تا دختر خانوم جلو در بودن که شله زرد آورده بودن(ماه محرم بود)هر دوتاشون رو می شناختم یکیش کسی بود که عاشقش بودم و اون یکی دوستش بود که خونشون سر کوچه بود.من هم با دیدنش کپ کردم و اون در حال سلام کردن و دادن شله زرد به من بود و من هم دهنم باز مونده بود و آب دهنم داشت می ریخت رو پاهام.یک کلمه حرف نمی زدم و فقط گیج نگاهش می کردم!اون دوتا که من رو تو اون حالت دیدن فکر کردن عقب موندم! و هر هر خندیدن به من و این یکی به اون یکی گفت که همین کم بود عقب مونده به این محله اضافه بشه!من تا این رو شنیدم خودم رو جمع و جور کردم و بدون یک کلمه حرف کاسه شله زرد رو از توی سینیش برداشتم و درو بستم!(شما بودید جای من چه واکنشی به این اتفاق داشتید؟) اونجا بود که من مطمئن شدم نه خوابم نه دیوانه و تمامی اهل محل رو بدون اینکه از قبل دیده باشم می شناختم و حتی اسم هاشون رو بلد بودم.(حتی یک اشتباه در اسامی و اهالی نبود و بعدا با آشنایی فیزیکی و واقعی متوجه شدم که بله هیچ اشتباهی وجود نداره) خلاصه اینکه من تنها چیزی که نگرانم می کرد و 13 سال عذابم میداد همون زلزله ای بود که من در خواب دیده بودم و پدرم جلوی چشام مرده بود(من به شکلی خیلی عمیق عاشق پدرم بودم و هنوز هم مرگش منو به شدت آزار میده) کم کم با گذشت زمان من هم فراموش می کردم که چی دیدم و یک سری از خواب های جدید برای من شروع شد که در اون خواب ها(تقربا 3 سال پیش) من چند سالی بیشتر بزرگ شده بودم و همش توی بیمارستان و جاهای نا شناخته(خیابون های ایران بود چون هنوز تابلو هاش یادمه)در رفت و آمد بودم و البته دانشجو بودم تو خوابم!و هیچ شغلی هم نداشتم.(اینا که دانشجو بودم و بیکار در همون خوابم می فهمیدم مثل شما که می دونید که کی هستید و چه وظعیتی دارید)تو خوابم پدرم مریضی سختی داشت و در نهایت از دنیا رفت و بعد خواب هام جهش خیلی بزرگی کرد و من خودم رو در سن 60 سالگی دیدم زن و 4 تا بچه داشتم . وکیل بودم و خیلی موفق در کارم . ثروت زیادی داشتم و خوش بخت بودم.باز دو باره به جلوتر پرتاب شدم و تقریبا فکر کنم 65 ساله بودم. دنیا تغییر کرده بود و زمین و آسمان عجیب شده بود.خاک زمین سرخ شده بود(یعنی همین کره زمین بود نه جای دیگه و هم از حرارت سرخ شده بود و هم رنگ خاکش قرمز شده بود)هوا خیلی غبار داشت و عملا به جای ابر یک دود سنگینی در هوا بود.(همون سطحی از آسمان که بهش جو می گن و ابر ها در اون لایه هستن)ماه و خورشید داشتن کنار همدیگه قرار می گرفتن و کسوف رخ می داد.خورشید با اینکه از وسط آسمان به سمت غروب می رفت اما نورش خیلی کم بود(یعنی فکر کنم چیزی حدود ساعت 2 بود با توجه به نحوه قرار گیری خورشید)پرنده ها دیوانه شده بودن و خودشون رو به هرچی که سر راهشون بود می کوبیدن.مردم همه در خیابان ها و کوچه ها ازدحام کرده بودن و هرکی تلاش می کرد به یک طرف فرار کنه و هرج و مرجی به پا بود که فکر نمی کنم در هیچ کجای دنیا همچین چیزی تا به حال اتفاق افتاده باشه! مردم سر وسایل نقلیه با هم دعوا می کردن و حتی مثل آب خوردن همدیگه رو می کشتن.من تو اون خواب داشتم تلاش می کردم که زن و بچه هام رو نجات بدم(البته می دونستم هر کجا هم که فرار کنیم باز هم میمیریم ولی برای اینکه دلشون رو خوش کنم گفتم به سمت شرق فرار کنن.خورشید از سمت غرب طلوع کرده بود و هرجا که سایه ایجاد می شد در دم آدم ها و جانور ها می مردن برای همین من سعی کردم اون ها به سمت خورشید فرار کنن تا بیشتر زنده بمونن گرچه که هیچ وقت نمی تونستن از سرعت خورشید جلو بزنن یا هماهنگ باهاش حرکت کنن.ولی خوب انسان به امید زندس و برای چند لحظه عمر بیشتر هر کاری می کنه!)من هم الکی بهشون گفتم می مونم تا طلا و جواهراتو با خودم بیارم و این حرف رو زدم تا خودم بمونم و با چیزی که وعدش رو شنیده بودم روبه رو بشم. چه فرقی داشت چقدر دیگه زنده باشم؟ در هر صورت من هم می مردم حالا چند دقیقه زودتر یا دیر تر! وقتی سایه به چند کیلومتری من رسید و نور خورشید آروم آروم عقب نشینی می کرد دیدم زمین داره شکاف بر میداره و کوهی عظیم به رنگ سیاه و طلایی از دل زمین بیرون میاد و مثل ژله نرمه و آدم ها رو داخل خودش فرو می بره(یک کوه نبود همین طور به تعدادشون در جهت های مختلف اضافه می شد. بجز پشت سرم که هنوز نور خورشید داشت عقب نشینی می کرد و البته من هنوز زیر نورش بودم و به من هنوز می تابید.)تا اینکه من هم داخل اون کوه ها گرفتار شدم و مردم. از اون به بعد من دیگه خواب آینده رو ندیدم.

البته چند نکته در مورد خواب هام:

1. تمام خواب هام تا وقتی که در اون زلزله مردم مو به مو اتفاق افتاد حتی همون زلزله اتفاق افتاد اما من و خانوادم نمردیم چون شدتش زیاد نبود و منجر به تخریب ساختمون ها نشد ولی دقیقا در همون حالتی که تو خواب دیده بودم توی حیاط و پدرم در حال صحبت با همسایه ، زلزله اومد اما نه خونه ها آوار شد نه کسی مرد(این تنها چیزی بود که تغییر کرد و رخ نداد)

2. در جایی که خواب دیدم پدرم مریض شده و من دارم در یک جای غریبه زندگی می کنم. بعد 3 سال پدرم به سرطان مبتلا شد و برای درمانش من و اون به تهران رفتیم و اونجا هم بیمارستان دی بود و البته اون خیابون ها هم که من مرتب درش رفت و آمد می کردم میدان ونک به سمت توانیر بود که بیمارستان قرار داشت و عین خوابی که دیدم پدرم با فاصله زمانی کاملا درست و دقیق فوت شد

3. حالا با اینکه خواب آینده تموم شده و اصلا آینده رو نمی بینم به جاش خواب های متفاوتی می بینم که توضیح میدم.آیا تا به حال شده که یک فیلم بلند رو داری می بینی و ناگهان کاری پیش میاد و فیلم رو متوقف کنید و بعدا ادامه فیلم رو ببینی و باز دو باره فیلم رو نگه داری و باز دوباره در یک فرصت دیگه مابقی فیلم رو ببینی؟؟!!من هم دقیقا همین جوری شدم با این تفاوت که من وقتی خواب می بینم و بیدار میشم ، شب بعد یا 2 شب بعد(حد فاصل این دو شب خواب نمی بینم یا شاید یادم نمی مونه)دقیقا از جایی که بیدار شدم ادامه خوابم رو می بینم! و این حالت ممکنه تا ده شب ادامه داشته باشه که اگر بخواهیم بگیم یک فیلم رو در خواب می بینم یک چیزی نزدیک 10 ساعت فیلمه!اصلا و ابدا هیچ وقت نشده که من یک خوابی رو نا تموم یا ناقص یا جا به جا ببینم.یا بین 2 شب خوابیدن یک خواب جدید اضافه بشه که به خوابم مربوط نباشه.در این خواب ها من جسم خودم رو ندارم و شخص دیگه ای هستم که در هر 2 نوع خواب متفاوت شخصیت من هم متفاوته و بعضی وقتا مرد هستم و بعضی وقتا زن و بعضی وقتا پیر هستم و گاهی جوان!ولی نکته اینه که در جاهی مختلفی بر روی زمین اتفاق می افته و من نه شخصی رو که در کالبدش هستم رو می شناسم نه جایی که داره اتفاقات رخ میده نه ادم های اطرافش رو.و بر خلاف خواب هایی که در مورد خودم از آینده می دیدم و یا خواب معمولی بود که من اختیار عمل داشتم اما در این خواب ها کالبد شخصی که من در اون فرو میرم خودش اختیار و تفکر داره و من هیچ اختیاری ندارم و هیچ فعلی انجام نمی دم!عملا از زاویه دید اون شخص همه چی رو می بینم و فقط ناظر بر اعمال و اتفاقات زندگیش هستم.البته خواب های اینجوری رو که می بینم همیشه مهم هستند.از قاتل زنجیره ای گرفته که مطمئنم شرقی بود چون توی آینه خودش رو نگاه کرد و من دیدم مثل چینی و ژاپنی هاست.تا محقق فرانسوی(زبان هاشون خارجیه اما با اینکه خارجی حرف می زنن من مثل تله پاتی می تونم حرف هاشون رو بفهمم حتی با اینکه صدای ذهنشون هم به زبون خودشونه اما نمی دونم به چه صورتی من متوجه حرف هاشون میشم)که داره تلاش می کنه یک قطعه فلز نا شناخته رو آنالیز کنه.یا پیر زنی که شوهرش مرده و بچه هاش اونو به سالمندان فرستادن و اون از ناراحتی اعتقادش رو به خدا از دست می ده . یا استاد دانشگاه ایرانی که داره به همسرش خیانت می کنه!(نا مرد به اون دختری هم که دوست شده بود داشت دروغ می گفت و داشت به اون هم خیانت می کرد و با یکی دیگه هم بود)

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes  برگشت غذا از معده و انسداد راه تنفس

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No     

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    در هنگام نزدیک شدن به اون پل و اون شخص نورانی هشیاری من افزایش پیدا میکرد

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness?      More consciousness and alertness than normal   احساسات درونی افراد رو درک میکردم

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   حداقل صد برابر

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience.   حداقل صد برابر

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No   

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   ترس.شگفتی.افزایش ایمان به خدا   

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No   

Did you see an unearthly light?   Yes   نور از سمت موجودی لنسان نما ساتع میشد.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
شخصی بسیار نورانی و قدرتمند بود

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   Yes   شخصی که من به عنوان موجوذی نورانی دیدم قطعا حضرت آدم بود چون احساس نزدیکی خانوادگی با او داشتم و احساس میکردم او یکی از اجداد من است.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   No   

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No   

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   Some unfamiliar and strange place
فضایی بدون چیز مشخص با زمینی سرخ و بی انتها

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
در هر لحظه متفاوت و نسبی بود بعضی از قسمتهایش قابل قیاس با زمان بود و بعضی آنی بود

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No


Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No


Did you come to a border or point of no return?   I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will


Did scenes from the future come to you?  Scenes from the world's future  
در شرح اصلی توضیح داده ام

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (�life after death�)?   Yes   به گونه ای همه چیز ملموس بود که حتی از زندگی این جهان واقعی تر بود.گویا این زندگی چیزی جز خیال و رویا نیست

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s meaning or purpose?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life�s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No   

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No   

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No   

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience   

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?  "I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:   قبلا بیان کردم

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   دلبستگی به این جهان ندارم

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   Yes   قبلا

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   No  

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?   No   

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:   Experience was definitely real.   

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real.   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   بسیار با گذشت و مهربان شده ام

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No   

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No      

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes  

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you?       با دیگر تجربه کنندگان آشنا کنند