Barbara M's Experience
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Experience description:

My husband had fought Non-Hodgkin's lymphoma for 3 years.  It was now in remission but there were new difficulties.  I had just told him that he now had leukemia and that the doctor said he had up to 6 weeks to live.  I signed him up with the local Hospice on the Saturday before his death.  I'm sure he was tired fighting and he lapsed into a state of semi-consciousness on the following Tuesday.  My daughter, sister and I gathered around his bed for 3 days.  We talked to him and read him short stories of angels.  During this time, he would occasionally raise his hand high over his head and wave frantically.  He kept repeating the word "no, no."  This happened multiple times over the days of Tues, Wed & Thurs (the day of his passing). The Hospice nurse was due to visit that Thursday.  As soon as she arrived and I left the room for a short break, he took his final breath.  We are convinced that he was waving off the angels who had come to escort him to his heavenly home.  He had waited until someone (other than my sister and daughter) could be with me as he passed away.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     See below.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    Since this experience happened to my husband, I am not sure of the answer to this question.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    Less consciousness and alertness than normal

            Since this experience happened to my husband, I am not sure of the answer to this question.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No      

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?            No      

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            He probably felt frustration.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     Angels.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     They often have stories of their own to tell.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I believe that NDE's are real.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real   

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?   

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           No      

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?           
No           

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No                  

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     Since this experience happened to my husband and we were only observers, I could not answer many of the above questions.