Experience description:

This is hard to explain, however I'll try my best as I need to share this with someone.  I have this memory, I'm waiting in this long white corridor that goes on for with looks like forever. There are doors on either side of the corridor, with benches and seats sitting between doors for us souls to wait for our door to unlock. Here's the weird bit, there weren't many other souls around and the ones that where around had other souls with them. I didn't though, there was no one there for me. I remember not caring though, almost like I was use to being on my own. A lady walking past my seat holding a small boys hand even stopped, looked at me with shocked eyes and I swear I heard her think 'Why are you on your own? Didn't you want someone with you?'. I remember just looking down at the ground in front of me, I felt a little sad at that point but I had other things to contemplate. I knew the life I was about to embark on would be so hard, impossible even, I was actually cocky while waiting for the challenge. I had every confidence in myself, even though I felt like I could possibly be making a mistake. Not long after I shrunk into what I can only describe as a ball? I lost all substance. Next thing I know the kind woman was letting go of the boys hand and was reaching towards me. The last thing I remember of the corridor is the sound of the door clicking open, the lady saying good luck while warmly smiling at me and feeling like I was falling. After that I got brief flashes of what I think was light filtering through the skin of my mother's stomach and that's it. The really messed up bit? I want to go back to the corridor and do it all over but differently, I wish I hadn't thought I was up to the challenge of a difficult life, especially this one. My personality fits with taking on a challenge bigger than me, what I don't get is why I felt like I had something to prove. Seems like I was a lonely soul an that's translated into being an antisocial mortal.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?          Yes    Just on how to explain the things I felt during the experience an the difficulties I have in explaining why I made an awful decision when I chose to be born.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    Completely so.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  Not at all, even when I shrank it all felt as real as the wind on your face.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No     

What emotions did you feel during the experience?         A feeling of regret and longing.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         A slight pulsing sound in the background.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?         No     

Did you see a light?        Uncertain     Perhaps, though that may have been light filtering though the skin of my mother's stomach. I remember falling into darkness.

Did you meet or see any other beings?         Yes    A woman and a boy, they where walking past me towards their doors I imagine. She gave me some sympathy as I was on my own then actually helped me come down to earth by opening my door and putting me through it.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?         No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No     

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No      Did you have any sense of altered space or time?     No     

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes    I came to know that there is no God, is souls govern themselves and we either make the right decision or the wrong one. There is no all knowing being who resides over us all.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?           No     

Did you become aware of future events?      No     

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?          Yes    I chose who I was going to become. I felt excited but scared, I made a mistake and now I pay the price for such a hasty decision.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?     No     

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?   I tend to think more about the people around me and those I choose to have further relations with. I'm reminded often that a lot of the things that make me myself have been around longer than this body has. It furthered my disbeliefe of any religion. I want to look after people the way a kind soul looked after me.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    I'm more careful of the choices I make. The impact they have can last a lifetime.

Have you shared this experience with others?       No          What emotions did you experience following your experience? Longing and regret.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?          Best part was understanding how I came to be here. The worst was realizing my mistake.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No