Anna E's Experience
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Experience description:
My
aunt has died and the whole family was with her. We expected her death because
she suffered from an illness by birth. 6 weeks later my stepfather died
unexpected from an heart attack. 3 months later his mother got hit by a car when
she wanted to visit his grave, and died immediately. My boyfriend couldn't stand
my pain and broke up after three years. I felt horrible, I couldn't recognize my
life anymore. I worked in a psychiatry and drove home by bus at around 9 in the
evening. I sat in the bus talking to God. I said, 'Prove me that you exist. I
need to know. Show me a light!' Ten minutes later I got off the bus and started
to run home because it was so cold. Suddenly there was a blinking light in my
coat, not in the pocket but it must have slipped down through an hole. I have no
idea when I should have left it there, but it started blinking because I ran,
and I knew it wasn't an accident. I got scared and said, 'Okay, okay I'm sorry,
I believe in you.' The light was real but the circumstances it appeared didn't
leave no doubt to me. It was a sign. I got very quite inside, and felt consoled.
Was this experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something
associated with the deceased?
No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical
contact from the deceased?
No
Did you see the deceased?
No
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance
or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the experience last?
3 minutes
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
Sudden
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
No
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?
No
How do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
Because there was a real light as a response to my
inner dialogue
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
First I was surprised then I got a little scared but in the end I was so very
happy about it
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
My life had changed heavily. It was easier to accept because I realized
everything is under control.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
The worst part was the loss I had- the best thing was my spiritual
development. I broke so I could build myself. And I am exactly where I belong
to.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of
your experience?
No
Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such
as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?
Yes That there exists something divine
Death Compacts are when two
or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try
to contact the other(s). Have you ever
made such a compact?
No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events
during your experience that could be verified later?
Yes Well, I showed the blinking light to my
mother.
What emotions did you feel during
the experience?
Happiness and relaxation
Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
No
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you become aware of future
events?
No
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
No
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
No
Did you meet or see any other
beings other than the deceased?
No
Did you see a light?
No
Did any part of your experience
seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?
No
Have you shared this experience
with others?
Yes
They find it beautiful
Have you shared this experience formally or informally with
any other researcher or web site?
No
Were there any associated medications or substances with
the potential to affect the experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in
your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the
experience?
No
Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of
body experience or other spiritual event?
No
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes