Angie Y's Experience
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Experience description:
The first time, it was
only a few weeks living at college dorm (September 2009). It was a Saturday, me
and my roommate had a friend sleepover last night. They went to a dance, came
back late, so we slept late that night. When I woke up, it was about noon, I saw
my roommate still sleeping, so I closed my eyes and went back to sleep. Then I
felt my body was heavier 'I' was kind of lighter. And 'I' got slowly suck or
pull towards the wall behind me. When I start shifting, I saw the girl who slept
over in my room was using my roommate's computer, and she was on gmail. I
started screaming my roommate's name, hoping she could wake up. When I was about
to go through the wall, I was thinking, "I will see the two guys living next
door." But then all I see is a tunnel/tube with dark red color mixed with black
shapes. I was lying down, and I could only see and think; I couldn't even move
my eyes or turn my head. I was speeding up faster and faster like the speed of
light towards one direction. I was so scared, mad, and non-stop swearing, "Where
the (beep) are you going?" I felt something like a string from the middle of my
chest is attaching to something back there (my body), and I felt that if that
string breaks, I might die. So then I was thinking, "Please don't break! Stick
well!". Then I was thinking, "How much longer are you going? Can I go back".
Then I changed my attitude to, "Please go back, please go back." I finally
decreased speed then stop. "Good. Now go back." I started going back, with a not
too fast or not too slow speed. "Good. You better go back!" I felt that I was
safer and more in control. A short distance before I go back to my body (I don't
remember the wall there), I had a bit of confusion and lost of memory; I don't
know how I get back to my body. But I was shock, more awake, and said to myself,
"I am back." Before I open my eyes and start moving, 'I' started to shift to the
left again, I was thinking, "Where the (beep) you going out of the window for?"
Then in a snap, I was back again. I sit up right away and started crying. I said
to my roommate, "I was yelling at your name, thanks for not saving my life." She
said I did not even talk, the girl who was using gmail said she hear nothing
either.
There was once that I
was alerted that it's coming again. It happened Late July or early August of
2011. I was sleeping until after noon time. The numbness and heavy stone body. I
was fully awake and want to fight back. But then my head got anesthetized and
could not help myself from falling asleep. But I know that if I fall asleep, I
am going to some weird experience again. I was lucky, shook myself to wake up
and started moving around before it comes back again.
The last time (so far)
was today, August 9, 2011. I slept until almost 11am. I felt the numbness and
heaviness again, I tried to fight back, but I lost it. I went into this complete
dark space, there was nothing in there except me. I was remaining the sleeping
(face-up) pose, and all the sudden, I bent back wards (above my waist), not
willingly. And my soul slipped out from my head!! But it just shift about the
length of a head, maybe plus neck. I was too shock. I woke up and jump off my
bed.
There are few more
times that this happened when I was at college.
And it always take me
more than 30 mins to fall asleep every time because I always alert the
sounds/movement around me (as much as I hearing goes)
So I am sure that those
experiences are NOT dreams
For dreams, I always
follow the dream to do whatever it makes, such as running or going to restaurant
to take shower.
Later I found out that
when I am in a dream, and I have consciousness, I will immediately wake up.
Like, "Why am I taking a shower in the Sushi restaurant?"
On the other hand, when
OBE happened, no matter how I want to control it or wake up, I can't get out of
the OBE situation, and during or even before OBE happen, I was awake saying
things in my mind like "oh crap!". So, it is physical.
Usually I was afraid
and want to go back/get out of this situation.
(My emotions are
influence by my religion belief, I am scared that the evil is doing this.)
But I have other
experiences which I was not out of body, but I was fully awake, with my eyes
closed. I heard my roommates come back from class, the sound from her key chain,
her voice, her talking about chemistry class, her friend's conversation and all
detail movements. But when I opened my eyes, no one was there. And similar
things like this happened four times.
I rather not talk about
this.
Family (sisters and
mother): They were concerned in terms of religion.
Boyfriend: He doesn't
want to believe those spiritual stuff, he keeps telling me I was dreaming.
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I am sure that I was
more than 50% of consciousness
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
No. I can tell the
difference.
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain I had
one experience at the age of 21. That's about the time that I was kind of used
to OBE and getting tired of it. I woke up to go to bathroom and come back, it
was around 4am. Within few minutes, I felt my body became heavier and sink into
my memory foam. At the same time, my body was stone hard and numbness that I
cannot move my body at all. Then I felt something (maybe it's my soul?) left my
feet, and I can see the ceiling slowly got closer and closer to me, or I am
floating up. Seeing that, I thought "Again!?" While I was 'thinking', I was back
to my body, still felt heavy and numbness, and felt that some string in the
middle of my chest is attaching to something important up top. Then I thought,
"I am really tired, I just want to sleep, so go wherever you want." Then I saw
the ceiling increase speed, faster and faster. I got scared and thought, "STOP!
Come back!" still without the ability to move. And then I saw the ceiling got
further and further away. Around one to two inches before 'it' came back to my
body, my vision was blurry and shifting. I was finally in one piece and fully
awake. Later I thought about it, it was different experience compare to the rest
of them; it felt like 'I' was switching back and forth between my body and that
thing floating up there. When it comes to seeing, I was up there, when it comes
to thinking, I was down there. And I don't remember seeing anything or not
seeing anything when I was down there thinking.
What emotions did
you feel during the experience?
The first time, I was
shock and started yelling at my roommate's name. Then I was scared and kept
swearing.
Did you hear any
unusual sounds or noises?
No. I am certain that I
don't hear anything except my own thoughts.
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you notice how
your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes I know that
every time it happened, I can see. Except for that, I didn't pay much attention
to other senses.
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain I am not
sure the meaning of "altered space". But the first time I was out. I was pulled
into the wall, there was an endless tunnel or tube. Its color was dark red mix
with some black spots, the two colors have no certain shape, just like water and
oil stirring together.
Did you have a
sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?
Uncertain I am not
sure if the endless tunnel counts.
Did you become
aware of future events?
No
Were you involved
in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes I had to be
very aggressive, yelling, ordering like a despotic ruler thinking, "GO BACK!
NOW!" (with swearing in between)
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain I really
hope not. But very rarely, I can hear unexplained voices, sounds, or sense
movements. Most of the time, I make up lies, telling myself it's caused by
temperature changes. But recently, I really can't lie to myself about what I
heard.
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
No
How has the
experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices?
No. I keep it separate and I don't really think about it. However, I really want
to know the answer. I know that children most likely experience those more then
a young adult like me. And I know that I am not experience any health condition
or near to death situation. I don't watch scary movie. I don't take any
medication to mess up my body chemicals. Why me, and why at this age?
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes Roommates: They
never heard this before, they were shock, too. Some of them don't believe me,
one of them think it's really cool and ask me to teach her.
What emotions did you experience following your experience?
After the experiences, I am always really piss off. There are too many question
marks regarding those experiences and I just want an answer and maybe a solution
to it. I feel that someone/something is playing this on me. It's against my
will!
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
I
really dislike the feeling of not being able to control, and something that
science can't explain to me.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes Most of the questions asked exactly what I was paying attention to
during the experiences.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
I
hope not, but most likely it will happen again. I will post them up in the
future.