Amy I's Experience
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Experience description:
I HAD JUST LEFT WORK
AROUND 5 PM AND HAD PLANNED TO MEET MY HUSBAND AT THE MALL LATER AFTER
PURCHASING GLOVES AT ANOTHER STORE NEAR THE MALL.
BEING FRIDAY EARLY
EVENING, THE STRIP CENTER WAS CONGESTED AND PARKING PLACES WERE DIFFICULT TO
FIND. PEOPLE WERE EVERYWHERE! AS I SEARCHED FOR PARKING I NOTICED THERE TWO
YOUNG BOYS RIDING THEIR BIKES AND WHEELING IN OUT OF THE CARS WITHOUT ANY CARE.
I STOPPED TO LET THEM GO IN FRONT OF ME AND THEN I PAUSED TO LET ANOTHER CAR
PASS IN FRONT OF ME AS I MADE THE TURN ONTO THE MAIN STREAM OF TRAFFIC IN FRONT
OF THE STORES. THAT IS WHEN I NOTICED A BLACK MAN CROSSING THE STREET RIGHT IN
FRONT OF MY CAR AND I STOPPED. HE TURNED AND LOOKED STRAIGHT AT ME AND GLARED
WITH SUCH HATE AND MALEVOLENCE; I WAS SHOCKED AT HIS PENETRATING GAZE AND FELT A
VISCERAL COLD TREMOR MOVE UP MY BACK. MY HAIR LITERALLY FELT LIKE IT WAS
STANDING ON END. HE SAUNTERED PAST AND I DID NOT LOOK AT HIM AS I LEFT. DRIVING
UP TO THE STORE I WANTED TO GO IN; I JUST DECIDED TO PARK IN THE FIRE LANE AND
JUMP IN TO MAKE MY PURCHASE. THE LENGTH OF TIME I WAS IN THE STORE WAS NO LONGER
THAN 5 MINUTES.
UPON LEAVING I WAS
HURRIED TO NOT PARK TOO LONG IN THE FIRE LANE AND AS I APPROACHED THE CURB TO
STEP DOWN, I NOTICED A MAN WITH HIS BACK TO ME LEANING OVER A TRASH BIN THAT WAS
RIGHT NEXT TO MY CAR. AS I STEPPED DOWN, HE TURNED AND I SAW IT WAS THE BLACK
MAN I ENCOUNTERED EARLIER. HE LOCKED HIS EYES ON MINE AND I RUSHED AROUND THE
BACK OF MY CAR TO GET AWAY FAST. AS I WENT TO CLOSE THE DOOR OF THE CAR; I
LITERALLY THREW MY PURSE AND BAG ON TO THE PASSENGER SEAT WHEN MY CAR DOOR WAS
RIPPED OUT OF MY HANDS AND NEXT I KNEW THIS GUY WAS ALMOST ON TOP OF ME
SCREAMING IN MY FACE. AT FIRST I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT HE WAS SAYING SO I
JUST GRABBED MY PURSE AND THREW IT AT HIM THINKING THIS WAS A ROBBERY. HE THREW
IT BACK IN THE CAR AND AGAIN STARTED YELLING BUT THIS TIME I MADE OUT WHAT HE
WANTED...MOVE OVAH! MOVE OVAH! HE WAS PUSHING ME INTO THE PASSENGER SIDE OF THE
CAR. I KNEW INSTANTLY HE WAS CARJACKING ME AND THE CAR!
THIS IS WHEN ALL THINGS
CHANGED IN MY WORLD. MY CRITICAL THINKING KICKED INTO A MICROSECOND SPEED. I
BEGAN TO FIGHT BACK AND THIS IS WHEN HE PULLED A GUN FROM HIS PANTS AND PLACED
THE SHAFT OF THE GUN ON MY LEFT CHEEK. HE SCREAMED HE WAS GOING TO BLOW MY
FUCKING HEAD OFF IF I DIDN'T GET OVER. NEXT THING, I KNEW I WAS EVALUATING
EVERY OPTION AVAILABLE AND EVERY OUTCOME. I ENVISIONED A PATIENT I CARED FOR IN
THE ICU THAT HAD AN UNSUCCESSFUL SUICIDE ATTEMPT WITH A GUNSHOT TO THE HEAD; I
EVALUATED EVERY TRAJECTORY OF THE BULLET AND WHAT WERE THE ODDS I MIGHT SURVIVE
THE DAMAGE; I SAW MY HUSBAND AT THE MALL WAITING FOR ME; I SAW MY PARENTS AND
THE NEWS OF MY DEATH; I KNEW I WAS IN A THRESHOLD MOMENT;
THE NEXT THING I KNEW I
WAS HOVERING ABOVE MY CAR AND I COULD SEE THIS GUY LAYING ON TOP OF ME AS I
LOOKED DOWN THROUGH THE WINDSHIELD. I COULD SEE PEOPLE WALKING ALONG THE
SIDEWALK AND IN THE PARKING LOT LIKE NOTHING WAS GOING ON. I COULD SEE CLEAR
OVER TO THE MALL! COLOR APPEARED AS IN A SEPIA PICTURE; SUBDUED AND WASHED OUT.
AS I LOOKED AROUND I THOUGHT OH GOD HE KILLED ME! I AM OUTSIDE MY BODY! TIME
SEEMED TO NOT EXIST AND THERE WAS NO SOUND, NO HEAVENLY LIGHT, NO ANGELIC NOR
DEMONIC BEINGS, JUST NOTHING! NO COMFORTING PRESENCE OR KNOWLEDGE. IT WAS
TERRIFYING! I TRIED TO LOOK UP AND THERE WAS JUST WHITENESS LIKE BEING INSIDE A
CLOUD OF FOG. INSTANTLY I BEGAN TO CRY THEN I HEARD WHOOSH! AND I WAS BACK IN
THE CAR AGAIN FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE. THEN I REALLY GOT SO ANGRY I THOUGHT I MIGHT
EXPLODE...I WAS THOROUGHLY PISSED OFF...I FOUGHT THAT MAN SO HARD AND SCREAMED
MY LUNGS OUT...STILL NO ONE WOULD ASSIST. WE WRESTLED IN THE CAR AND I GUESS HE
JUST GOT TIRED OF DEALING WITH ME SO HE THREW ME OUT OF CAR. HE JUMPED IN THE
CAR SEAT AND LAID THE GUN DOWN ON THE PASSENGER SEAT WHILE HE SEARCHED FOR THE
CAR KEYS. I JUMPED ON HIM AND TRIED TO PULL HIM OUT OF THE CAR AND I HOPED THE
PEOPLE WATCHING WOULD HELP. NO ONE WOULD HELP. HE THEN GOT HOLD OF HIS GUN AND
WENT TO SHOOT ME BUT I JUMPED BEHIND THE CAR.
HE THEN DROVE
AWAY AND I WAS LEFT COLLAPSED AND HYSTERICAL IN THE STREET. PEOPLE STARED AT ME
AND STILL NO ONE WOULD HELP. I CALLED THE POLICE. THREE WEEKS LATER THE CAR WAS
RECOVERED IN NEW ORLEANS IN A SHOOT OUT. THE POLICE TOLD ME I WAS FORTUNATE I
FOUGHT SO HARD OTHERWISE THEY PROBABLY WOULD HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR MY BODY
SOMEWHERE BETWEEN GEORGIA AND LOUISIANA.
WHITENESS BLOCKED MY
VISION
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
Yes NOW I HAVE
SPONTANEOUS KNOWLEDGE OF EVENTS. EG. JFK, JR. PLANE CRASH
PLANE CRASH, PAST
EVENTS IN CERTAIN GEOGRAPHIC SITES
Any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
No
Was the kind of
experience difficult to express in words?
No
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
Yes I was assaulted
at gunpoint with the perpetrator placing a gun on my face and telling me he was
going to blow my fxxxxxhead off if I didn't let him in the car with me.
What was your level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
INTENSE consciousness
and micro time alertness
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
NO! IT WAS VERY REAL
EVEN OUT OF MY BODY. TIME SLOWED DOWN IN ACTION BUT THE THOUGHT PROCESSES WERE
ALMOST INSTANTANEOUS.
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes I NEVER SAW ANY
APART OF MY MYSELF. I WAS PURE CONSCIOUSNESS.
What emotions did
you feel during the experience?
FEAR. FEAR astonishment
that I was out of my body, then more fear because there was no light, or angels,
or loved ones present. NO ONE! CONFUSION; WHERE IN THE HECK WAS I? THEN WORRY
SET IN THAT MAYBE I WAS GOING TO HELL.
Did you hear any
unusual sounds or noises?
WHOOSH when I went back
into my body OTHERWISE SILENCE.
LOCATION
DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures?
No
Did you see a
light?
Yes BUT VERY
SUBDUED LIGHT THAT ROBBED COLOR FROM THINGS.
Did you meet or see
any other beings?
No
Did you experiment
while out of the body or in another, altered state?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
Did you notice how
your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?
Yes INTENSE
ALERTNESS AND MICRO SECOND THINKING AND VISUALIZATION
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time?
Yes OUT OF SPACE
TIME DIMENSION; NO TIME EMPTY SPACE
Did you have a
sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
No
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?
Yes THE PLACE I WAS
HOVERING WAS GREY, SUBDUED COLORING TO THE POINT COLOR WAS WASHED OUT. LIGHT
WAS DIM AND VAGUE; FELT LOST AND COULD NOT SEE ABOVE ME.
Did you become
aware of future events?
No
Were you involved
in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any
changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes CONFIRMED I AM
ENERGY/ SPIRIT
How has the
experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career
choices? I
HAVE PTSD
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes EXTREMELY
VIGILANT WHEN OUT ON MY OWN.
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes INITIALLY
SHARED WITH HUSBAND AND PARENTS, SOME FRIENDS. THEY DO NOT REALLY COMMENT;
HOWEVER, I HAD SUCH DIFFICULT TIME PROCESSING THE EMPTINESS OF THE EVENT OUTSIDE
MY BODY I SOUGHT PROFESSIONAL COUNSELING. THE PSYCHOLOGIST WAS NOT SURPRISED;
HE INQUIRED TO ME IF I HAD EVER HEARD THE TERM "SCARED TO DEATH?" i SAID
YES...HE TOLD ME THAT IS WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. THE FEAR LITERALLY SCARED ME OUT
OF MY BODY.
What emotions did
you experience following your experience?
I BECAME VERY ANGRY
THAT THIS WHOLE EVENT CAUSED AN OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCE AND THAT I HAD TO FIGHT
FOR MY LIFE. AFTERWORDS, DISCOURAGED BY PEOPLE'S LACK OF PARTICIPATION AND
EMPATHY, REALIZED I REALLY AM ON MY OWN.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
THE ABOVE FOR THE
WORST. THE BEST: TO FIND OUT IT WAS NOT MY TIME TO GO AND THERE IS A PRESCRIBED
TIME TO GO; THE KNOWLEDGE THERE ARE MANY MORE LEVELS OF EXISTENCE AND
CONSCIOUSNESS OUTSIDE THIS REALM.
Is there anything
else you would like to add concerning the experience?
ON ONE HAND WISH IT
NEVER HAPPENED; FLIPSIDE, ANOTHER EXPERIENCE TO THE OTHER SIDE; HOWEVER, NOT
PLEASURABLE AS BEFORE WITH MY GRANDMOTHER'S SHARED DEATH EXPERIENCE AND AFTER
DEATH COMMUNICATION WHICH I POSTED WITH THE SITE.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes