Alexander's Experience
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Experience description:
First time I've recognized
this "feature" (if you wish) of mine in a commuter train, when I was about 18-20
years old, don't remember exactly when. I often took a commuter train
then. Once I was on the train and
was sitting on the bench; it's easy to get sleepy on a train and then I fell
asleep. I slept for some time, and
then I woke up, but could not move; my eyes were open just a bit (this I
remember for sure, because I could see the floor and my legs); this continued
for 3 or five minutes, then I was able to move. Actually this has been
happening to me periodically about once every year or once every two or three
years, during all my life. First I
was afraid, but then I started feeling more confident (maybe just get used to
it). When I was 40 (i.e. recently) I experienced it twice!
Now let me describe
everything carefully from beginning to end!!! I sleep..., then I wake up,
most often suddenly, but sometimes wake up regularly, I see everything with my
eyes, therefore I conclude that I have them open or I see everything some other
way, but I cannot explain how, BUT I SEE EVERYTHING!!! But I see in the direction
I'm facing. I want to move my hand,
i.e. I'm lifting my hand, but I see that it stays where it was; I try to move
the hand again and I see now that it moves (I see for sure that it is raising)
and then suddenly it is where it was initially. Lake frames in a movie: click,
and everything returned back to the first frame. In such situations I don't
feel my body; my consciousness is somewhere near to my eyes. Naturally, I start
worrying; first thoughts like "Am I dead?" come to me and then I start
struggling, i.e. trying to use my will to make my body act. And after about
third or sixth try (usually) everything starts obeying my will, i.e. my body
"comes alive", if you can say that. It usually happens like this: from the head
(brain) a soft tingling energy wave (I'm trying to find a proper description)
goes down through my body
, like a spring breeze. I have been thinking about
it, and it seems to me that it is either some energy (soul) transcends from
another world or just an important part of the brain, responsible for motion,
starts functioning. But one thing I understood
for sure: it looks like something is late to return (plug back in) to my body.
Consciousness (ME) from other world suddenly comes faster then everything else,
and for some time IT stays by itself. One thing I understood for
sure, I exist independently of my body; a spark, a little dot, my consciousness,
my SELF.
Was the
kind of experience difficult to express in words?
No
At the
time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No
At what
time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and
alertness?
Make myself move momentarily!!!
How did
your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare
to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
Less consciousness and alertness than normal
Make myself move momentarily !!!
Have you
shared this experience with others?
Yes
Did you
have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Yes
How did
you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:
Experience was definitely real
Were
there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or
significant to you?
How do
you currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real
Have
your relationships changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
No
Have
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
experience?
Yes
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Is there
anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
NO
Did the
questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes