Alessandra P NDE-like 28056/29485

Suddenly I found myself in a place that was like paradise. From what I remember, I did not feel bad. Rather, there was no pain, nor incident.

I simply found myself there... but it was not just a regular dream, on the contrary it wasn't even a dream but something else very different.

I was overwhelmed by an atmosphere of live and incredible peace. My consciousness expanded in a profound harmony, united with and participating along with the divine.

It was a state of such beatitude from which I would have never wanted to return.

I was walking along an invisible street that was rising upwards, and immersed in a blue clear pure sky.

My father (who had died 10 years prior, at 66 years old, but here he seemed very healthy and looked about 30 years old) guided me towards a garden as he walked ahead of me. He didn't speak, but I knew I should follow him.

There was an atmosphere of incredile peace and joy, and you could feel a love that we could never imagine having on earth, even from far away.

There is no other way to explain what exists there, and unfortunagely words can't convey exact ideas.

We arrived in a small garden... he nodded goodbye to me and turned towards where he had come from, and I found myself with a woman whose features were oriental, dark hair, dreassed in a jacket and black pants. I didn't know this woman.

The garden was fantastic: I rememver a few details... it was a typical Japanese style garden with grass and well-manicured trees, and at the back there was a large wall made of sculpted stone over which ran a waterfall.

She seemed to have been waiting for me. She guided me inside of a wooden structure that was filled with shelves of big books.

She took out an enornous book, with a finely engraved balsawood, opened it, and I saw that there was writing filled with ideographic characters similar to anciety Chinese.

She showed me a particular page, pointing to it, but I didn't understand the writing. Then she closed it, put it back and we returned to the garden.

She told me, or better yet she had me understand (we communicated without talking, telepathically, but we understood each other very well) that I had to go back.

But... at that point I didn't want to know about it. I opposed it with all of my forces: I didn't want to leave this harmonious and peaceful place.

I continued to cry and sob. I couldn't stop and incredibly (I don't know how it happened) I was back in front of that woman who was hugging me and calming me and reassuring me, telling me that I would return but, at this moment, I wasn't yet ready.

This second experience I also remember as though it happened yesterday, and sometimes when I think about it I am very moved and affected.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?

There was no distinction between minor or major intensities.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

It seemed as though my body was vibrating (not physically) very fast.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?   No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?   Joy and peace.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel?   No

Did you see an unearthly light?   No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?   No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?   No.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?   Yes   my father who had died years earlier.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?   No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?   No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down?   No

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?   No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?   No

Did you come to a border or point of no return?   No

Did scenes from the future come to you?  No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)?   No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?   No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?   No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?   Yes

I felt as though I was part of everyting when I first arrived on the road to heaven.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose?   No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships?   No

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?   No

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?   No

What occurred during your experience included:   Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience?   I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience   .

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:

The experience has intitated a spiritual life in me and I don't fear death.

My experience directly resulted in:   Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience?   Yes   My spiritual life (not only that) has intensified.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?   No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you?     Tutta

Have you ever shared this experience with others?   Yes  Years.

Many were incredulous. Now (2020) it's easire to share.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:   Experience was definitely real

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?   No

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?   Yes   They have intensified.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?   No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?   No

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?   Yes

What could a national organization with an interest in near death experience (NDE) do that would be of interest to you? You are already working on sharing this with the world.

I found myself in some heavenly place. It was no dream, but something much different and real. I was 'overwhelmed' by indescribable a feeling of love and peace. There was no longer time and my conscience was expanding with a deep harmony, unity and participation to the cosmic whole, to the divine.

It was a state of such a blessing that never I would have wanted to come back.

I was walking on an invisible pathway leading upward towards the sky. My father (who passed a few years ago, but who seemed to feel quite well there) was walking in front of me and taking me towards a garden. There was an unbelievable atmosphere of peace and joy, and it could be felt a love that here on the earth we cannot imagine even remotely. There isn't another way to explain what is over there, and unfortunately words cannot give any exact account.

We arrived in a small park, he waved me by nodding and went on, while I met a woman.

The garden was fantastic: I remember a few details...it was a typical Japanese garden with at its bottom a wall of chiseled stones from where a waterfall came.

She seemed to have been waiting for me. She led me to a wooden building packed with shelves loaded with big books. I picked a huge book I opened it and I saw there were ideographic characters similar to Chinese.

She opened it and she showed a particular page, but I couldn't understand what was written in it. Then she closed the book, placed it back on the shelf, and we went back in the garden.
There she told me, or better she let me know (we were communicating without speaking, in a telepathic fashion, but we could understand each other perfectly) that I had to go back. But then I did not even want to talk about it. I was opposing this notion with all my forces: I did not want to leave that place of harmony and peace.

But...I woke up in my bed. And I burst into desperate tears. I could not stop crying and, incredibly (I do not know what happened), again I found myself in front of that woman who was now hugging me and reassuring me saying to me that I would be back but, for the time being, I wasn't ready yet. Whereupon I was here once again.

At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? no

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Unfortunately words do not suffice to explain

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? when I was in the garden with the 'woman'

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? As if I was submerged in a sea of vibrant life/light that was energizing me and sharpening my perceptions, and made me felt in a total unity of lover and joy.

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Completely engrossed by the atmosphere of peace and love. Most of all that love was something INDESCRIBABLE! Now I am positive death is a door to enter in 'world' of a superior order, and that we are here to accomplish one (or more) mission(s).

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Wouldn't know. I had no hearing in a common sense, for we weer communicating through our minds. And we understood each other very well.

Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? no

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Great peace and joy, until she told me I had to go back. Then deep and inconsolable desperation. Did not want to come here anymore.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? no

Did you see an unearthly light? Diffused light very welcoming.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? A woman dressed with trousers and a black blouse, in a Far East fashion.

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? no

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? My father passed a few years earlier. He was in shape, he was well, and showed about thirty years.

Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? no

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A garden in the sky. Well kept, wonderful colors, oriental style. A place of peace, with a building (a library) ion the right.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? no

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? no

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? no

Did you come to a border or point of no return? no

Did scenes from the future come to you? no

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? The woman when I did not want to come back, she said to me I wasn't ready yet. That is, when I am ready I shall go back there to do something. It's a reality.

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? no

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? no

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? no

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? yes

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? no

During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? an indescribable love that cannot be compared with any conception of great love we can entertain here.

During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? no

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? no

What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your exp

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience

Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: Change occurred gradually, because I came out from a heavy addiction to drugs and medicines that lasted thirty years. But that experience gave to me a very strong inner input to get rid of my past.

My experience directly resulted in: Large changes in my life

Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Change occurred gradually, because I came out from a heavy addiction to drugs and medicines that lasted thirty years. But that experience gave to me a very strong inner input to get rid of my past.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? no

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Much later on. years. can't tell how many have been influenced.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? I heard about it in books I read because of my first Nde. I cannot say in any way though that I have been influenced, because the experience did not depend on my will in nothing.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:

so very real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: The 'memory' is so vivid no matter many years have passed by. It's an experience, no doubts about it.

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Much more free and inclined to be compassionate.

Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? I continue a spiritual search that goes also beyond the orthodoxy of my Christian religion.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? no

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? no

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? no