Ajith M's Experiences
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Experience description:
I have had two specific
experiences which I shall describe as No 1 and No 2, but I do not know if you
will accept this as NDE.
No 1.
It was a normal day and
my daughter was five years old. She while playing used to jump from the wide
space near the windowsill on to the bed cushion and on that day when she jumped,
the central bed post broke and we were unable to sleep on the cot as a sag had
developed. So we propped the cot to the wall and pulled the bedding cushion on
to the floor and slept against the door such that we were lying in the same line
to the pooja room deity of Lord Shiva adjoining the next room to our bedroom
i.e. the pooja room was the third room from our bedroom in a straight line. That
night I saw Lord Shiva in all his glory appear before me, he laughed aloud
happily in a thundering voice and held both my shoulders with his hands. At that
time he was my equal height. There was no snake around his neck and he had the
trident in his hand. He had the skin color of golden white. His muscled arms
were very big, one arm about the size of my body showing the utmost power. I
touched his right chest with my palm and then he turned and I saw his golden "jata"
or matted hair flowing to the ground. Now he was about 7 feet tall and I had to
look up at him. He walked and I followed suit. He went up a hillock and then I
saw two small lady figures or souls laughing. I turned to them and told "the
Supreme Lord is going and you are laughing?" Then when I turned I saw Lord Shiva
entering backwards facing me into an opening doorway in the hillock and
disappeared. I lunged forward calling him Mahadevaa and I awoke and it was about
4 a.m. (4:05 a.m.) I assume if those ladies would not have laughed and not
distracted me, I would have walked along with the Lord and my soul would have
left my body with him. Only to avoid that I was distracted by those lady souls.
The whole experience was so pleasant and soothing that I felt so light at my
mind and had an inner strength that helps me now in all my daily activities. I
don't have any problems and if at all there arises, it solves on its own.
No 2
This was on a Maundy
Thursday, I saw Jesus Christ standing in front of me. A big cross was in front
of him. He was placing both his hands on the T of the cross. There was no upper
portion of the cross, only it looked like a 'T' He was smiling and was looking
benevolently at me for a long time. He was wearing white gown with a red robe on
his shoulders. I awoke after some time and then also it was about 4:15 a.m., I
shook my wife awake and asked her to pray to Jesus. She was astonished and
wondered why I was saying so. But still we prayed quietly. Then this particular
incident occurred clearly about one month afterwards. I slept normally as usual
after my night prayers to Lord Shiva and Parvathi and had a good sleep. Then I
saw myself very high above in the space on a Golden carved platform I was
kneeling and beside me was Lord Jesus Christ in white gown only (no red robe on
his shoulder). I could see stars below me under the platform and ahead. We were
both facing another balcony on the opposite where Lord Shiva was standing only
his torso was visible, he was different from the usual self, he had a yellow
robe over him with golden hair just flowing parted in the middle and the hair
was flowing to infinite, there was no building as such only the balcony was
visible and the platform on which we were standing also there was no building.
The Lord Shiva was swaying from side to side, he had his eyes closed as in
meditation and the only distinguishing factor was his third eye partly close in
his forehead. I placing one knee on the platform and in a very enthusiastic
manner said aloud to Christ "the Supreme Father is standing there" He then said
"I know better than you, he is my Father". No mouth or tongue was used for all
these conversations, only mental telepathy was used. Words just came from the
soul. Then a loud thundering voice emanated from Lord Shiva to me "GO BACK" and
I awoke from my sleep. I assume it was not the time for me to be there at that
time. This also was early in the morning at 3:45 a.m. The time I could see
because I have a clock hanging in front of my bed. The whole experience was so
pleasant and serene that I felt like a feather. It was a revelation to me. That
all religions are one and we puny humans segregate ourselves by creating
religious walls and living thinking the other person is alien. Whereas all are
our own brothers and sisters. We should actually break down these walls.
Actually if we rise above these walls and be with God we can see below,
segregated humans in their religious sects not knowing the utmost truth. I am a
very small man but with a very old soul in my body I assume always wanting to
unite back with Him.
Very recently five
months back I saw a date in a yellow box "14/08/2014" This I saw on two
consecutive days. I don't know what this means. I am waiting for that date now
to see if there is any significance in what I saw. Only four days left.
At the time of your
experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No
Was the experience
difficult to express in words?....No....
At what time during
the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and
alertness?....Normal
consciousness and alertness Throughout the experience.....It was the same as
though I was awake normally.
Please compare your
vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately
prior to the time of the experience.
The vision was
so real that I did not know that I was sleeping. It was as though I was wide
awake.
Please compare your
hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately
prior to the time of the experience.
The hearing was
also normal but more resonant and echoic. There was no speech by the body, only
sound emanated from the inner self but made no difference, I was astonished by
speaking not with the mouth. Lord Jesus just glanced at me and I could hear him
speaking and so was Lord Shiva's "Go Back". Just sound emanated from there.
Did you see or hear
any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness /
awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No No earthly
interference was apparent.
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?....Pleasant,
calmness, peace, tranquility, and new knowledge.
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel?....No....
Did you see an
unearthly light?....Yes....The
light around was not of the Sun. It was a glow. In my first experience it was a
silver glow. In the second experience it was a mixed light of gold and silver.
So soothing.
Did you seem to
encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?....I
encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
My above
statements are explanatory enough, but still I add the conspicuous feature of
Lord Shiva and Jesus Christ was that both their noses were exactly similar.
Sharp featured.
Did you encounter or
become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?....No
Did you become aware
of past events in your life during your experience?....No....
Did you seem to enter
some other, unearthly world?....A
clearly mystical or unearthly realm....From
where I was standing on the platform, it was very high up in space because I
could see stars below and ahead and all around. The golden carved platform was
firm yet in mid space.
Did time seem to speed
up or slow down?....Everything
seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning....There was
no sense of time during these experiences. Time was irrelevant.
Did you suddenly seem
to understand everything?....Everything
about myself or others....I
had a knowledge of the oneness of God, that all humans irrespective of his race,
religion or color are actually brothers and sisters, children of the same God.
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?....Yes....There
was a limit of my being in the place where I had been. I was denied entrance
with the Lord Shiva in the first experience and in the second I was told to go
back, that my time has not come to be there. Then how did I reach there? Maybe
Jesus took me there and Lord Shiva his Father told I am not fit to be there now?
I don't know.
Did you come to a
border or point of no return?....I
came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against
my will....Actually
in both experiences I was enthusiastic and wanted to be there and enter the
hillock in the first instance with the Lord which I was denied and I awoke. In
the second instance it was so pleasant that actually I never wanted to come
back, but I was asked to Go Back.
Did scenes from the
future come to you?....No....
Did you have a sense
of knowing special knowledge or purpose?....Yes....I
have a purpose I think in this world, otherwise I would not have been sent back
after I had reached such a height.
Discuss any changes
that might have occurred in your life after your experience:....Large
changes in my life....Before my experience, I was a little uncertain because of
a little financial problems, but now I leave everything to Him and I am now at
peace and tranquility and actually everything is being taken care of by Him.....
Did you have any
changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result
of the experience?
Yes To love all
without bias and be considerate. Be patient and calm in any crisis.
Do you have any
psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did
not have before the experience?....Yes
My hand heals now. I have done this only to my wife, daughter and mother. I pray
and touch them and they say that their ailment or pain is decreased. I am
humbled now very much and there is no shred of ego in me now.
Have you ever shared
this experience with others?
Yes I shared it as
soon as I awoke to my wife and to my mother, then slowly to selected people who
would not laugh at hearing these experiences. This world has majority of people
who ridicule others hearing such facts. So I have told my experiences to those
selected few only.
Did you have any
knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?....Yes
Yes once when I was about 21 years old, I was sleeping and I saw myself being
taken up by a dark being with two horns in its head, I was frightened when I saw
myself about to hit the running fan above, but I passed through that without any
feeling, then my mind called out to Lord Shiva and chanted his mantra "Om Namah
Shivaya" suddenly the thing left its hold and I fell back into my body. I
clearly remember that also now.
What did you believe
about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:....Experience
was definitely real I never had the feeling that I was sleeping and I had
left my body, I was feeling as though I was really with the Lord and Christ. No
feeling of OBE.
What do you believe
about the reality of your experience at the current time:....Experience
was definitely real....It is so vivid in my mind still to this very moment as if
it happened last night. I really went through the experience in reality.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?....No....
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes
I
have become more ardent in my beliefs and more religious, in fact with all
religions. My mind fills with love when I see a Christian and a Muslim.
At any time in your
life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?....Yes
Yes, later on my mother had real darshan, or saw Lord Shiva with her own eyes in
our pooja room (place of worship in a house). I once saw the Lord riding his
Bull just near me in sleep. I saw Christ's face close to my face pressing my
cheek in my sleep. I can now see all that while I am typing this matter as
though in reality. I don't expect anybody to believe what I say, because this
world in full of disbelievers. It is between me and God. No interference please.
I will quietly worship him and he will benevolently look after me.
Did the questions
asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe
your experience?
Yes Your questions
are so inquisitive that every detail is explained by the person answering it. I
appreciate your efforts. Good.
Are there one or
several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant
to you? Yes
one that I am being noticed by God, second my self is eradicated and I feel
selfless, meaning I feel if I can be a sand particle in "His" feet my birth
would be gratified.
Is there anything else
that you would like to add about your experience?....Yes,
every person in this world has a piece of God in himself. Just call up that and
invoke it and polish it so that he will get a tingling that someone is loving
him and he will ask that person to love others.