Mel Experience
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Experience description:
On a peaceful Sunday afternoon, I began
feeling ill. I told my wife I was going to the hospital to get checked out,
because I'd never experienced these symptoms
before, and felt them progressing slowly. I drove myself the short distance to
the hospital, but could feel my normal body functions deteriorating. Stiffness,
nausea....clamminess.
The triage nurse placed me in a waiting room, where I passed out. I was moved to
a small examining room and vitals were taken. IV's followed quickly, one in each
arm, as well as a heart monitor. The staff was calm and cordial, including the
attending physician. After a period of time, my condition was deteriorating, and
it was decided that I should be moved to a more technically equipped
room within the ER. I was placed on oxygen, and away we went. The real ride was
yet to come! Now in the larger and more Star-Trekish room, with computers and
monitors as well as the IV's and oxygen, the physician with arms folded, kept
watching my pulse rate on the screen....he talked softly and confidently in
detail to me about the circumstances as he saw them. I was having a severe
allergy to seafood, and my body was literally shutting down. The course of this
shut-down had to be reversed quickly. An average heart rate is 70 I was told and
mine was slowing..as it reached 50...then into the 40's....and when it hit 30,
the doctor called for epinephrine
(adrenalin) into the IV's. He leaned in close to my face and softly said,
"stay with me"....large doses of epinephrine
is like the fastest roller coaster you can imagine...as i grabbed the rails of
the bed, I began to shake...my body was in a full spasm, shaking the metal bed
rails that I thought would soon give way, the sound of the monitors beeping,
alarms sounding, now, about 5 people standing before me as the doctor called for
more epinephrine....the
level of noise was deafening. Was the experience difficult to express in words? No At the time of the experience, was there an
associated life threatening event? Yes
Describe:
Anaphylactic shock, experienced for the
first time in my life, was progressing rapidly while I was in the Emergency
Room,
my heart rate was dropping rapidly,
and when it reached 30, adrenaline was used.
my heart rate was dropping rapidly,
and when it reached 30, adrenaline was used. Was the experience dream like in any way?
The experience was in real time, throughout,
no dream like feelings.oughout,
no dream like feelings. Did you experience a separation of consciousness
from your body?
No What emotions did you feel during the experience?
Prior to the voice asking me 'to stay or
go', I have to admit I was afraid
and fully understood that I could die shortly. After the voice, all fear left
me, and I felt warmth and peace. I smiled and knew that any danger had passed. afraid
and fully understood that I could die shortly. After the voice, all fear left
me, and I felt warmth and peace. I smiled and knew that any danger had passed. Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? Yes,
I heard the voice of God, or His messenger.
Describe:
The interruption
of the chaos in the room, but just the sounds of it all. real time continued. interruption
of the chaos in the room, but just the sounds of it all. real time continued.
Describe: It
was my choice, I didn't make it audibly, just the thoughts of my son, answered
the question asked of me.
Describe:
This is where it actually gets more difficult
to describe. The events
were clinical, outside the voice, but over time I have on occasion
met people, strangers, and could tell you specific things about their life,
occupation previously and location of that job. It is un-nerving to me and to
them.
Also, I have found that people in
general don't want to hear about this, nor discuss it, as though it is a
creation of my imagination or stems from the 'dark evil side of the spirit
world'. Three specific incidents have occurred and I have no control over this,
nor try to do this, it just happens. Reasons, unknown. difficult
to describe. The events
were clinical, outside the voice, but over time I have on occasion
met people, strangers, and could tell you specific things about their life,
occupation previously and location of that job. It is un-nerving to me and to
them.
Also, I have found that people in
general don't want to hear about this, nor discuss it, as though it is a
creation of my imagination or stems from the 'dark evil side of the spirit
world'. Three specific incidents have occurred and I have no control over this,
nor try to do this, it just happens. Reasons, unknown.
Describe: Life
is short, and I believe that instead of seeing a human being having a spiritual
experience, I feel that we are all spiritual beings having a human experience.
There is no fear death, nor do I long or remorse the loss of others. I heard the
most pleasing, considerate voice...and to describe it better, it is what Love
would sound like.
Describe: Reactions
are predictable....they stare at me, and then either clear their throats and
change the subject, or it just gets very quiet...ironic, yes? What was the best and worst part of your
experience?
The trauma of almost dying was not
enjoyable, but the experience gave me more desire to make my life one of value,
and service. Is there anything else you would like to add
concerning the experience?
I've read, following my experience, about
others, and the light, and visiting passed loved ones. I understand the ability
for that to happen. I also feel that they are blessed as well me, for having
been thru this. We try to explain supernatural happenings with a human
vocabulary...it just doesn't work. I am not any more special than anyone else,
we are all the same, we are all special in God's eyes. I look forward to seeing
my Saviour, Jesus Christ..and especially to hear His voice......again!
Describe: If
you have read this commentary, then let me ask you....what do you think?
Describe: I
can connect to the feelings of Peace/Joy and Love at anytime, thru meditation
and appreciation of God's gifts to us all.
In a split second, like hitting the mute button on the remote control, this room
went silent to me as the activity continued. I watched in silence, and then a
voice.....a calm, and extremely casual tone asked " well, hey, do you want
to stay ...or go?" I watched the activity around me continue, but in pure
silence, they voice sounded like a male voice, in his thirties. I thought of my
family, my son who has a disability that I care for and love dearly, and as if
the button were pressed again, the sound of the room clicked back on to high
volume.
I now heard the doctor again say to me, 'stay with me'...my bed was being moved
again, this time down the hall towards the large Trauma Room...the physician
told me I was being moved to a more facilitating room. I just smiled at him,
still shaking from the medication, I said, "it's ok, the crisis has
passed"...and "everything will be fine, the critical point was back
there..." as I pointed to the room we had just left. He looked at me and
smiled, saying, 'that's correct', but I want to keep an eye on you'. Again,
hooked up in the Trauma Room to the machines...I began to relax with total
confidence that I was going to be fine. I was still feeling the shakes but had
total clarity of mind thru this time, and assured my daughters standing in hall,
that All is well with dad. I was now in the ER for over 3 hours when I looked
into the corner of the room and saw a man standing there, quietly, just watching
me...when the doctor popped in again, I laughed and asked if I was the only one
who could see this man?....He laughed and said, no, the man works here...we both
laughed, but the potential seemed real enough to me, following the recent
experiences. I explained what had happened to the doctor, and in his same
coolness and respect, he just smiled at me. I stayed in the ER for several more
hours and was then admitted for the night. I stayed awake for most of the night,
peaceful, quiet, and in prayer to God to say thank you for giving me this choice
today. I felt God smile. symptoms
before, and felt them progressing slowly. I drove myself the short distance to
the hospital, but could feel my normal body functions deteriorating. Stiffness,
nausea....clamminess.
The triage nurse placed me in a waiting room, where I passed out. I was moved to
a small examining room and vitals were taken. IV's followed quickly, one in each
arm, as well as a heart monitor. The staff was calm and cordial, including the
attending physician. After a period of time, my condition was deteriorating, and
it was decided that I should be moved to a more technically equipped
room within the ER. I was placed on oxygen, and away we went. The real ride was
yet to come! Now in the larger and more Star-Trekish room, with computers and
monitors as well as the IV's and oxygen, the physician with arms folded, kept
watching my pulse rate on the screen....he talked softly and confidently in
detail to me about the circumstances as he saw them. I was having a severe
allergy to seafood, and my body was literally shutting down. The course of this
shut-down had to be reversed quickly. An average heart rate is 70 I was told and
mine was slowing..as it reached 50...then into the 40's....and when it hit 30,
the doctor called for epinephrine
(adrenalin) into the IV's. He leaned in close to my face and softly said,
"stay with me"....large doses of epinephrine
is like the fastest roller coaster you can imagine...as i grabbed the rails of
the bed, I began to shake...my body was in a full spasm, shaking the metal bed
rails that I thought would soon give way, the sound of the monitors beeping,
alarms sounding, now, about 5 people standing before me as the doctor called for
more epinephrine....the
level of noise was deafening.
In a split second, like hitting the mute button on the remote control, this room
went silent to me as the activity continued. I watched in silence, and then a
voice.....a calm, and extremely casual tone asked " well, hey, do you want
to stay ...or go?" I watched the activity around me continue, but in pure
silence, they voice sounded like a male voice, in his thirties. I thought of my
family, my son who has a disability that I care for and love dearly, and as if
the button were pressed again, the sound of the room clicked back on to high
volume.
I now heard the doctor again say to me, 'stay with me'...my bed was being moved
again, this time down the hall towards the large Trauma Room...the physician
told me I was being moved to a more facilitating room. I just smiled at him,
still shaking from the medication, I said, "it's ok, the crisis has
passed"...and "everything will be fine, the critical point was back
there..." as I pointed to the room we had just left. He looked at me and
smiled, saying, 'that's correct', but I want to keep an eye on you'. Again,
hooked up in the Trauma Room to the machines...I began to relax with total
confidence that I was going to be fine. I was still feeling the shakes but had
total clarity of mind thru this time, and assured my daughters standing in hall,
that All is well with dad. I was now in the ER for over 3 hours when I looked
into the corner of the room and saw a man standing there, quietly, just watching
me...when the doctor popped in again, I laughed and asked if I was the only one
who could see this man?....He laughed and said, no, the man works here...we both
laughed, but the potential seemed real enough to me, following the recent
experiences. I explained what had happened to the doctor, and in his same
coolness and respect, he just smiled at me. I stayed in the ER for several more
hours and was then admitted for the night. I stayed awake for most of the night,
peaceful, quiet, and in prayer to God to say thank you for giving me this choice
today. I felt God smile.